June 22, 2005
May 20, 2005
May 03, 2005
April 27, 2005
April 21, 2005
maybe because of the envy, may be other reason——my cousin will come here to study bussiness-without exams, without the qulificaiton of university undergraduate degree, but the college one, she can so easily go straight into the master course at warwick!! what should i say?? the chinese agencies are so successful??
she lives better than me, gets praises all the way through her life and i am the one always be forgotten… also, she took away all the gardians' attention from me!!!! i really hate her though i am not allowed to by my mother(her aunt)!!i really want to go crazy!!! haha!! i am such a bloody monster who is jealous of her courson!! however, i could do nothing with the such unjustce!!!
April 09, 2005
March 28, 2005
it is always unfair to some people they are just normal!!
i had nothing to say and i do not want to say anything at all right now!!
March 03, 2005
why i say forgein students rather than speakig international students? this is because the home tutors never thought we can achieve the level their home students arrive. i am so angry at such discriminations.
'u should write short sentences.','if u cannot expain it well, so u need to go to the help class.' truly that most of us need the extra enlish class, but does class essay really proved our true levels? everybody thought we are less eligibilities, but does this another way of showing their imperialism? they thought we are children, we need to be cared and teached by the superior race like english, then we can gain the value of life. totally shit!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am so depressed today, i even canceled my party for the bad mood. i found i cannnot get the high satisfaction at study and i worried about my future, too. i do not know what i will do next. i thought i can be a good labour in a big company, but the gender discrimination and the result of my study drived me off. i though i may take other jobs like artists or actress, but i am not young enough. also my big chines drived me off. i really unsure about my future, if people are bore to wait for death, i hope i can close my eyes immediately but my parents would let me do.
i really do not know why there is so many inequlities: races and genders can bring discrimination while physic attraction brings in opportunity differences.
i do not belive god because he never helps, if it is ok, i wish i could be god-who is reverenced by everybody even he did nothing at all. totally shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!