All entries for Monday 09 October 2006
October 09, 2006
You know that feeling?!... yeah THAT feeling.. that feeling!!! that makes you feel like a tightly rolled up ball!!! rolling down some path.. without any obvious destination in sight..
That feeling that closes your eyes to the progress you’ve made.. and tells you … your whole week was fruitless
That feeling you cant exactly describe as anger, or laziness, or disappointment.. possible as a bit of all of em tho!
That feeling that makes you lose the much needed confidence in yourself….
That feeling that makes your heart beat a little bit fatter than ususal!!! and makes your hands tremble for no reason whatsoever!
That feeling that is clamping so hard the wings that want to fly!
Gosh! I dont know exactly what it is! ... hmm but I think it has something to do with Fear!
I face this seemingly never ending battle again! and tell myself.. there is no reason to be afraid!
Dreams would come true,
Life would continue to blossom and flourish,
I would not fall short of all responsibilites
I would not be measured and found wanting!
The people I love would always be there and
I would continue to experience true progress in my daily activities and selfhood!
I tell myself, gently and then loudly! at the forefront of the battle field, I fight to silence all form of discouragement, weakness and Fear…
I dream of victory.. and the moment I emerge.. with victorious chants
Fear is F-false, E-evidence, A- Appearing, R-Real