fly

—Remembrance is your world, to Tong

No living men can fly, but you could.
A sweaty Sunday afternoon, I could not see
the high place where you stood.
Like a swift drawing on the sofa, I could not see
the contour of your body, nor
The curvature of the flight.
But heard.
In that sweaty bamming afternoon
You were there, landed in solitude.
Eyes open, sight faded.
I only listened, not even there,
But I guessed you saw me, I don't know why

No dead men can ever fly, but you did.

: 11 Mar 2005 22:54 |  Tags: Poetry |  Comments (0) |  Close comments |  Report a problem

I am the vampire of my own heart

Heautontimoroumenos*

I will strike you without anger
And without hatred, like a butcher,
Like Moses the rock!
And I will force from your eyes,

To water my Sahara,
The waters of suffering.
My desire, swollen with hope,
Will swim upon your salted tears

Like a ship taking to the open sea,
And in my heart, which they intoxicate,
Your dear sobs will echo
Like a drum sounding the charge!

Am I not a false note
In the divine harmony,
Thanks to the voracious Irony
That shakes me and bites me?

She is in my voice, the shrew!
All of my blood is made of this black poison!
I am the sinister mirror
In which the Fury gazes at herself.

I am the wound and the knife!
I am the slap and the cheek!
I am the limbs and the rack,
And the victim and the executioner!

I am the vampire of my own heart,
— One of the great abandoned,
Condemned to eternal laughter,
And who can no longer smile!

: 02 Dec 2004 14:14 |  Tags: Poetry |  Comments (6) |  Close comments |  Report a problem

钢琴

昨天和小强大旗他们去弹钢琴，算是开始拜师学艺。两个人都很厉害。发现小强的手指很修长，真是儒雅。大旗弹琴很有魄力，力道很足。山东出才子，（顺便也算俺一个）。真是不得了，所谓英雄出少年哇，两个人年纪轻轻就不的了。我年轻时候光顾着做流氓了，看看自己手指短短，毫无美感，弹钢琴真是有辱斯文！！

: 22 Nov 2004 05:50 |  Tags: 流水帐 Flashback |  Comments (5) |  Close comments |  Report a problem

To singapore

Writing about web page http://www.icip2004.org

tomorrow 5am will be heading to singapore. Jia wei has offered to give me a lift at that ridiculous time. Did a rehearsal with Heechan, really helpful, I am quite relax.

Let me go and enjoy.

: 22 Oct 2004 18:59 |  Comments (2) |  Close comments |  Report a problem

Curve forming experiment

Finally I have completed the Markov Random Field segmentation on curves. Not successful, it tends to group local segments rather than go with the contour, there is a strong effect of over-segmentation and tend to select local nearby curves.

: 11 Oct 2004 04:34 |  Comments (1) |  Close comments |  Report a problem

Freaky Saturday

Yuan Xiang, 大侠集体放我鸽子，两个猪昨天晚上还在兴致勃勃讨论什么买队服球鞋的事宜。所以啊，一觉醒来，世界就变了。人醒的时候，不太会变，往往一觉过后，想法就两样了。Tomorrow is another day真是含义深刻，古人说，睡三次觉，就得刮目相看。今日的Yuan Xiang，大侠，加上以前的我，就是铁证！

: 09 Oct 2004 10:21 |  Comments (1) |  Close comments |  Report a problem

Gosh Tuesday

Yuan Xiang彻底失踪了，早上没叫我去gym，手机关机座机没人接，天杀的不知道去哪了。

下午碰到张帆，要给杭外40周年校庆发贺卡，想想当年30周年校庆的时候，正好初一，在教学楼到食堂边上的草坪边站着参加升旗仪式。不知道那些官僚干了些什么，就记得有几本印刷品，除了领导题字，就是成功校友。不乏就是高官翻译或者留学美国之辈。以此为一个学校的成功范例，可谓悲哀。面子上满不错，天知道那些人自己觉得自己有多惨。杭外今后应该多印印活的开心的人，比如阿庄，王彦，余等辈。好歹做人还不改其乐。能天天写几句blog，吃顿好饭，才是高层次的境界，人谓之"活神仙“。

其他无事，5－7pm篮球，忘记换鞋，破鞋让我感觉和滑冰一样，居然2小时全胜。没下场子，多年来似乎还是第一次（刘达真tmd猛）。

: 07 Oct 2004 03:59 |  Comments (5) |  Close comments |  Report a problem

First entry

I hate to admit but I have lost my singapore ICIP invitation letter. Have to wait for a few days to get a new one.

Xiang made excellent pork with black bean saurce today. Really nice dinner. Remember to bring him medicine tomorrow. Birdren came to DCS for a chat on his final year project. Takes so long to realise that he is a talky chap too.

: 06 Oct 2004 01:53 |  Tags: 流水帐 Flashback |  Comments (6) |  Close comments |  Report a problem