All entries for Wednesday 19 January 2005
January 19, 2005
currently, feeling very stressed and annoyed. just dont feel like talking to anyone? i hate myself when i have to make an effort to sound nice to ppl when in fact i really dont wanna talk. why dont i have the hearts to say..piss off..im really busy?? i have a dateline soon, i hope u ppl understand..
and when i actually do tell these ppl off..they get annoyed with me asking me why im like this and u've changed and stuff..cant u ppl see?? i have work to do!! and im all stressed out abt it!! hate myself being 24/7 nice, and when i stop being nice..ppl get upset..
i've come to the point that u have to take me as i am. i dont hold grudges and when i dont feel like talking..it's because im angry or mad at myself and not at u ppl!!
so understand this, if u are my friend! and stop doing petty things to try to make me happy or tell some stupid-ass jokes when i dont feel like talking, bcoz most of the time, im not impressed..