…holding the key
Black swan excercise confirmed me being unable to focus and think when taking in information at the same time with/when other people are around.
I need alone time to absorb information and draw picture in my head to see the connection.
What would I be if I were the leader on that excercise,...I think that I would have been under lots of pressure and not perform at all, but hey,... how would I know, it could be the other way around, it could be that when situation come I reached another level of my ability.
Instead of freanking out, I might be able to put it together and see this thing through.
The other day I took a role of leader in coffee spilling situation, it was not complicate at all, and so the challenge in leadership skill is not much there.
However, whenI got the briefing sheet, I told myself to focus and get on top of things, I quickly read through (but thoroughly) and instantly came up with solution to the problem in my mind.
So when it's time to join the team, I already know how to control the game because the solution is at the back of my head.
There's no pressure there when you understand the situation, less stressed less panic.
The surprise of that day is....a comment from the team,...that I am decisive....dahhhhhhh
DECISIVE...are you joking me, my forever-area of improvement is INDECISIVE (I can never have enough information to make an informed decision).
Seriously I wanna cry, the first time in my life I learned that I can be decisive.
I think..... I think, it is very important that as a leader, you need to be on top of things.
because that give confidence to yourself, and to the team.
p.s. real life = you don't always have that key.