All entries for May 2007
May 28, 2007
Instead of studying, I spent my bank holiday afternoon watching the telly. Parent Trap and Father of the Bride 2. It must be great to have someone growing inside you. It must be great to be a mother. But to be honest I don’t quite know that feeling yet. I don’t know what Kuadik felt when she gave birth to her daughter. I don’t know what does it feel to look at the father of your daugther when he holds her in his arms.I am not yet a mother. Am is not yet a father. We don’t know when will the time come. It’s been 4 years, and yet we will wait, as Allah has His plan for me, for Am, for us all…
I’m sorry, I’ve just discovered the so-called ‘slow-down’ global movements after my friend posted an article on the ‘slow-down’ and Volvo.
I googled the internet and found out that the whole idea of ‘slowing-down’ is to value our life. Yes, it makes sense to me how the trend in life nowadays is such that we are fast-forwarding everything, but somehow we don’t quite know the reason for rushing things. It is often our nature to want something as much as possible and we feel that we have to be quick or else we will be left out, and others might get there before us.
Then, I started to think…well, hang on. My religion has taught me the idea of ‘slowing-down’ way before people discovered this idea. It’s just the matter of translating the teachings of Islam. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to fit my religion into anything, but it’s the total opposite. I view Islam as the way of life. Everything in life is Islam. Everything is a subset of Islam. Other people might think that religion is part of their lives. But as a Muslim, we should always think that we are in fact underneath the umbrella of Islam. Our whole lives are embodied within Islam, from the day we were born until the day we die.
We pray 5 times a day, we pause our daily routines to connect to God, thus we are taught to organise time, take control of time rather than letting time to control us. Whenever we are too drawn into something, focusing too much into our work to meet the deadlines, we stop and we pray.
We are taught to eat before hungry and to stop before we are full. We are taught to chew our food as much as possible before swallowing. We are taught that the right balance in consumption is one third of food, one third of water and leave one third for air. In essence, we are taught to ‘slow-down’ when we are eating. We are taught to take control of what we eat.
We are taught to be good to everyone around us, our families, our neighbours. When we value others around us, we tend to allocate time to be with them, to get to know them. We begin to understand that we need others to survive, as others need us. We realise that we don’t really want to spend too much time in the office, but we want the work-life balance. We also want to spend time with our families, our communities. Then we begin to realise that the limited time that we have at work is to be optimised. Thus, we work better, and we achieve better results.
Those are just few examples that I can think of at the moment.
There are two main things that we should always bear in mind. Our relationship with God and our relationship with His creation. What we do, and the time that we have in our hands have to reflect the two main aspects.
We should always remember that to ‘slow-down’ is not to waste time, but to value time, instead.
May 27, 2007
Ya…menjawab sebuah sajak yang aku dengar di Radio IKIM….
Memang aku patut untuk tidak merasa sedih…sebab siapalah aku…siapalah engkau yang membaca….kalau nak bandingkan dengan dugaan junjungan Rasulullah…Raja segala raja di syurga….ketika menghadapi dugaan yang tersangat hebat di zaman hidupnya….nak dibandingkan dengan sahabat-sahabat nabi….juara-juara Islam….yang terpaksa menghadapi segala seksaan dan dugaan…..
siapalah aku nak dibandingkan dengan mereka….
tak patut aku bersedih….dan mengeluh….
Ya Allah kuatkan hambaMu yang lemah ini…
...meski dugaanku kecil sangat ya Allah nak dibandingkan mereka yang berjuang untukMu…..tak sampai pun sebesar zarah….lemahnya aku Ya Allah….
.... aku ini lemah Ya Allah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have no idea what to write….but I’ll write anyway…
...wanting to have what others have….that’s human nature I guess…we always feel that what we have is not enough….
...what we have we don’t treasure, but we feel sorry for ourselves for not having what others have….
I don’t want much in my life…I don’t throw myself into the luxuries of nice clothes, expensive makeups, cosmetics, I don’t pamper myself with the lusts for buying stuff for the sake of my pleasure…..whatever I have…I always give….that’s me….I don’t really care what others might say…I’m simple….but my biggest problem is feeling too much on everything….yes…I feel too much…I absorb too much….but I’m not good in expressing my feelings…telling others what I feel….in the end, instead of explode, I implode…I’m the least confrontational person…
I only want to have just enough so that I can give…but what is enough?I want to have a simple life….be good to my husband, to my parents and family….to everyone around me…but most importantly, a good slave to my Creator…
May 12, 2007
I never thought that this old movie is so damned good…
A simple story, of two people of different colours, wanting to get married after knowing each other for a short while, and went to see the woman’s parents, telling them that they wanted to get married, and the same day, the woman invited the man’s parents for dinner…and the whole drama, emotions of a mother, a father, two people in love… wrapped together within just 1 day…
...a simple plot…but so heavy, so emotional, can’t help myself but crying….hahahaha…what a softie….hehehe…..
May 10, 2007
Went to A405b…hurts like hell…like a knife cutting through my chest…I felt sad, angry…..too much memories..Allah knows how hard I worked….staying in that room for hours and hours and hours….I was there when there was no one else…to study the impossible….to create something out of nothing…and in the end….
”..you have not made any progress….”
..that’s the only thing that they could think of..the only thing that they remember about me….
May 03, 2007
Kau memang lagi tua
Tapi akal kau di mana?
Kau tengking Mama kita
Kau memang sangat selamba
Kau ingat kau siapa?
Mengaji tinggi ke menara
Itu semua tak ada makna
Ibu sendiri hormat kau tak ada
Memang kau lagi tua
Memang kau lagi kaya
Company sendiri kau ada
Pada aku semuanya sia-sia
Kerna selagi kau bernyawa
Tapi tak mintak ampun pada dia
Jangan harap akan bahagia
Hidup kau sampai ke tua!!!
Who do you think you are?
You are older,
But where’s your brain?
You shouted at our Mama,
You are so obnoxious
Who do you think you are?
Yes you’re educated
But it’s not worth it
If you don’t respect your mother
Yes you are older
Yes you are wealthier
You even have your own company
But for me these meant nothing
Because for as long as you live
But haven’t sought forgiveness from her
Don’t expect to achieve happiness
In your life until you get old