All entries for Tuesday 29 August 2006
August 29, 2006
It's not that I don't want to go back home…but the circumstances do not allow me to….I have to fullfil my aims before thinking of going back home to Malaysia.
1) To have enough money to give to Mama and Papa,Mama Kuantan and Kuzan.
2) To get my PhD, or at least to have a working experience such that I won't start from scratch in Malaysia.
3) To have a saving so that I won't burden anyone back home.
4) To have enough money to pay MARA.
If I'm to go back home now, I'm happy to do so….but who will help me out to pay MARA?I will no longer be able to help out Mama and Papa…To go back home…is indeed easier said than done….I have nothing in Malaysia…but I want to help Mama and Papa…they need money.
Although I'm physically not at home, but my soul is with them, I remember them every single second and implore Allah to grant me an opportunity to serve them.
I had a great weekend in Manchester, spent time with old friends…Dee and surprisingly Ayu…I didn’t know that she’s in manchester..I haven’t seen both of them for 14 years..this goes way back when I was in Kajang…Sekolah Rendah Convent Kajang…to be honest, I was really upset because my family moved to Kajang, especially as I was about to start my darjah 6, it was very sad to leave Sekolah Sri Petaling…but Allah had other plans for me…I really enjoyed my school life in Kajang, although not that long.New sets of friends, new challenges….unforgettable moments of madness..
Dalina, I had only seen her once, in 1998, we were under the same Yayasan Tenaga Nasional scholarship, but she did her A-Levels in the UK.
I arrived in Manchester on Saturday, about 12 noon. Dee was not there as she had to work. So, Ash, Dee’s hubby, took my bags, and I spent time with Ayu. We had a chat…a long one…14 years has changed us a lot, Ayu is no longer in her boyish look, InsyaAllah will marry a Manchester brother next year…then I met Dalina, all three of us had a chat in Starbucks..Dalina’s great..a sweet girl, she talked about her work, her experience in UMIST, InsyaAllah she’ll finish her PhD soon, very understanding, a good listener and motivating..
That night we had a dinner in a malay restaurant (not Jati!!!), and later on Dalina slept over at Dee’s and all three of us had a long long chat….it was great…did a lot of catching up..the feeling was a bit hard to describe, but as though we’ve been close for ages…
The next day went to Liverpool with Kak Zah and her children, had ice-blended coffe in a restaurant in Chinatown with one of their friends Abby…the coffee is damned good!!I wanted a second glass but a bit shy though, then later on went to Abbys’s place, had a chat…
I won’t forget this weekend…why did I say that??Our path crossed, all four of us, and this must be for a reason only Allah Knows Best…I’m not sure what, but Alhamdulillah I feel a lot better now…
To Dee,Ayu and Dalina…just to let you guys know that without the past, there’s no future..which is why I still remember you guys…a special case with Dalina…I only met Dalina once though, but now I’m proud to her friend and regret that we did not meet earlier…
You guys, I really had a good time…hope that we could stay in touch.
Dalina, good luck with your viva.
Ayu, selamat pengantin baru soon…
Ash, did not have a chance to say thank you for your hospitality.
And to Dee…you’re one of a kind…you inspire me..in your own unique way…