All entries for Sunday 27 May 2007
May 27, 2007
Jawapan
Ya…menjawab sebuah sajak yang aku dengar di Radio IKIM….
Memang aku patut untuk tidak merasa sedih…sebab siapalah aku…siapalah engkau yang membaca….kalau nak bandingkan dengan dugaan junjungan Rasulullah…Raja segala raja di syurga….ketika menghadapi dugaan yang tersangat hebat di zaman hidupnya….nak dibandingkan dengan sahabat-sahabat nabi….juara-juara Islam….yang terpaksa menghadapi segala seksaan dan dugaan…..
siapalah aku nak dibandingkan dengan mereka….
...siapalah aku….
tak patut aku bersedih….dan mengeluh….
Ya Allah kuatkan hambaMu yang lemah ini…
...aku selemah-lemahnya…..
...meski dugaanku kecil sangat ya Allah nak dibandingkan mereka yang berjuang untukMu…..tak sampai pun sebesar zarah….lemahnya aku Ya Allah….
.... aku ini lemah Ya Allah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whatever
I have no idea what to write….but I’ll write anyway…
...wanting to have what others have….that’s human nature I guess…we always feel that what we have is not enough….
...what we have we don’t treasure, but we feel sorry for ourselves for not having what others have….
I don’t want much in my life…I don’t throw myself into the luxuries of nice clothes, expensive makeups, cosmetics, I don’t pamper myself with the lusts for buying stuff for the sake of my pleasure…..whatever I have…I always give….that’s me….I don’t really care what others might say…I’m simple….but my biggest problem is feeling too much on everything….yes…I feel too much…I absorb too much….but I’m not good in expressing my feelings…telling others what I feel….in the end, instead of explode, I implode…I’m the least confrontational person…
I only want to have just enough so that I can give…but what is enough?I want to have a simple life….be good to my husband, to my parents and family….to everyone around me…but most importantly, a good slave to my Creator…