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August 09, 2006

Is this making any sense?

Stabililty

My soulmate..my other half

Tgh tidur dalam ketenangan…

Am tidur

We just got back from Kuantan that time…bought Kancil for Papa and Mama….use Angah's name…Thanks Angah….that's a big favour that you've given us!!

He was very tired..I felt so helpless that time….we had to head to Kakak's house in Penang on the same day…

'Love is friendship on fire'


Me and Jehan Miskin

OoOoOooOpppsss…no scandal….sorry yek!!!

Well..no reason to malu….I guess that everyone has his or her own experience..the first time ever…REACHING PUBERTY

This is just an unforgettable memory when we were in primary school….darjah 3 ke 4 I can't remember…it must be darjah 4…because during darjah 4 only I started to wear baju kurung…

Yup…we were in the classroom…I felt something strange..something flowing inside me…was not in pain though….so..I carried on doing what I had to do…well…mostly…borak2..suddenly Jehan Miskin asked me…something like this: –

"Tengku…apa benda merah2 kat belakang tu??"

I looked at the back of my baju kurung…alamak!!!....what the hell was that??I was so panic..ran to the toilet as quick as lightning….pensel kat tgn pun still ada….hahaha….so..I cuci2 apa yg patut…tak banyak pun…

Well…he might be in a "keine ahnung" stage that time…mesti dia blank nyer….yelah…budak2 lelaki…tahu apa…derang cukup umur pun masa masuk sekolah menengah…

Anyway….zaman budak2….macam tu lah…...

That was it….me first time…kelakar giler….which is why I was much taller than many of me friends time tu…cepat sgt cukup umur….and then during darjah 5…jerawat naik kat muka…hormone imbalance I guess…bebudak lelaki ramai yg ejek….hahahaha…that's life!


Strength..confidence…

I know that it's all coming back to me now…slowly but surely…

Thanks Dee…wanted to give you a call but segan…ohh…I'm such a pain in the a**..am I not??

Now I'm ready..to rise again….

I miss Am so much right now that it hurts…

In the library now….did some reading on Lyapunov stability theorem…

To everyone out there thinking of me….I miss you guys!!!

My family…saudara–mara…Maksu and Ayahwan,Kak Liza and Family..Changfei and Le…All Warwickians….All Semsasians…IKIPians..budak Convent —–> At the moment baru jumpa balik Dee….

Budak SSP—–>Jehan Miskin..hahahaha…he might not remember me but he was the witness when I hit puberty…darjah 3 or 4 masa tu…and he loaned me his story book..it's Hardy Boys if I'm not mistaken…he was so tiny that time…much–much shorter than me…well..a lot different now…tapi me hubby lagi HENSEM!!!!


To draw or not to draw?

That is the question..

Kuya Cute

I'm not sure how did I manage to draw this portrait…when I drew this…it's like…my energy…my sadness..every single thing inside of my head flowed towards my fingertips…

Can someone explain what's going on??

Sebab sebenarnya bukannya reti nak lukis2 nih..

..tapi minat gak nak belajo…

Hey you…yes..you..yang tgh membaca tu..any idea where to start belajor lukis??


I'm a freak

Am I?

To those of you out there…having to wonder where the hell am I, why haven't I replied to emails, to YMs, to phone calls, to SMSs….

I want you to know that you guys are always in my heart..and I'm having such a difficult time right now…

I'm so sorry for being quiet for such a long time..


Oh Tuhan

Aku yang pasrah pada dugaanMu
Aku yang mendambakan kasihMu
Dalam wacana ini aku mengadu
Merintih dalam kesyahduan kalbu

4 tahun diriku menderita
4 tahun hatiku merana
Oh Tuhan tidak ku tahu apa
hikmah di sebalik segala

Tinggalkan masalah ku lari jauh
Kepada kekasih hidup aku berteduh
Kasih dan sayangnya padaku utuh
Biar dugaan tiba dirinya teguh

Oh Tuhan syukur rasanya di hati
dikurniakan Kau seorang suami
Sungguh sabar dan tabah mendampingi
Diriku yang serba kesesatan ini

Oh Tuhan ku ingin cahayamata
Namun belum Kau izinkan aku redha
UjianMu akan tetap kuhadapi jua
Meski pedih namun tarbiah pada jiwa

oh Tuhan ku pohon tidak kejauhan
Diriku in Engkau tinggalkan
Daripada NurMu yang menyinarkan
Hati–hati yang kotor serba kegelapan

Oh Tuhan ku pohon kekuatan
untukku menjadi isteri beriman
dan anak solehah tunggak harapan
juga untuk menempis nafsu syaitan

17 May 2006-Ulm, Germany


Sammi Yusuf_mother (translated)

I thought that the lyrics is much better expressed in bahasa kita….

Sammi Yusuf_mother (translated)

Sejahtera itulah wajahmu
Sejahtera itulah namamu
Yang ku kasihi
Sejahtera itulah senyumanmu
Buatkan ingin terbang jiwaku ini
Yang ku kasihi
Setiap malam
Setiap masa
Yang kau belai diriku ini
Namun tak pernah ku sedari
Dan sudahpun terlewat kini
Diriku mohon diampuni

Kini ku kesunyian penuh rasa malu
Kerna selama ini aku sakitimu
Ingin semula beradu di dakapanmu
Ibu..ku kesesatan tanpamu

Kaulah mentari terangi hariku
Kini siapa kan hapuskan airmataku?
Andai selama ini ku tahu kini yang ku tahu
Ibu..ku kesesatan tanpamu

Ibu..Ibu oh Ibu
Betapa ingin ku bersua dengan Ibu
Ibumu..Ibumu..Ibumu..
Itulah sabda Rasulmu
Dalam hatiku, dalam mimpiku
Sentiasa kau disisiku Ibu…

Kau pergi tinggalkanku
Oh cahaya hatiku
Oh penenang tika malam ku
Kau pergi tinggalkanku

Siapa lagi yg akan mendakapku?
Siapa lagi yg akan menjagaku?
Siapa lagi yg akan lindungiku?
Ampunanmu Ibu…ampunilah aku…

Amacam?Bolehlah sikit..sikit….

mama and Papa

Mama..Papa…Kuyan tak pernah putus berdoa utk Mama,Papa…dan utk kita sama2 dipanjangkan umur…utk Kuyan balas balik jasa…


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