It is coming Chinese New Year; so I have been being homesick for several days. During these days, I tried to keep myself as busy as I can. Everyday, I went to library, signed up for WSC; however, even I was busy enough, I sometimes still felt upset without any reasons. Maybe it is the first time I haven’t been home during the Chinese New year. It would be also difficult for my parents to bear the quietness without my noise.
Just now, I phoned my grandparents, as well as my parents. I told them my busy life here. I also told them I had decided I would go out on the Chinese New Year Eve, in order not to be homesick. I do not want to cry, while my raletives are crying in the other side. And just when I said bye to my grandma, I heard her voice was a bit sad. If it was the past, I must have been crying out as I pulled off the phone. But today, I didn’t. I was becoming tougher and braver.
I don’t know whether it is good or not, but it is true. It is my change. The world is changing everyday, as well as ourselves. I just want to be myself, a real me. That is enough.