So, it’s been a while. No blog last week due the wonderful invention that is half term. Though, saying that, part of me thinks I would have preferred not to stop. As useful as half term was to have a bit of a rest and get the chance to do some reading for my masters, it also gave me a chance to stress myself out, which I very much did. One day back in school sorted that out however, I think I had just allowed myself too much time to think about what could go wrong, what I didn’t know, what I hadn’t prepared. But that all disappeared as soon as I got back into school and realised the only way to learn and improve is to just get stuck in. So I have now tried to find out all I can find out, done some lesson plans, read the schemes of work, met my groups and I am back to feeling like I can’t wait to give it a go.
A great thing happened to me at school this week too; I was left in control of a class. I didn’t teach them, but I was solely responsible for them. This I’m sure sounds very mundane and irrelevant, but the amazing thing was I coped perfectly well and it felt completely natural. This was a massive confidence boost; a worry I had been holding on to for a while was that classes just wouldn’t be ‘with me’.
So there we go- not a very long one this week, as next week will be a biggy- as next week is my first week of proper teaching. This week has really just been me learning as much as I can about my school, and I am starting to feel like a part of it. So I guess that’s a successful week really.
Do I feel like a teacher? I’m really nearly there actually. That may well all change after I have tried some lessons next week, but for the moment I’m good. I feel ready, and I feel confident in the things I’ve learnt.
Do I feel like a researcher? Definitely. My masters has come on leaps and bounds, in no small part thanks to continuous help from Rachel. Big shout out to Rachel. I need to do a lot more reading mind; I may feel like a researcher, but not a very thorough researcher.
What am I worried about? Timing. And differentiation. Trying to guess how long things are going to take when you’ve never even done them yourself, let alone tried to make a group of 30 children do them, is exceedingly difficult. Also, differentiating is tough when so much of drama relies on group-work. However I think this will get easier as I get to know my groups, hopefully I will just start to see how different students need to work.