All entries for January 2005
January 28, 2005
txt I once got from tp:
"Philosophy…the spoiler of all fun in the world ever…assuming there is such a thing as fun…or a world"
thought it was pretty funny at the time but is becoming increasingly true of my life. The last couple of weeks have been pretty full on and I'm finding myself regularly fearing my head will literally explode. My friends laugh at me for the whole "yes, but how do you_ know _ that?" "is that actually true?" etc etc, but in all seriousness it's taking over my mind! I fear I'm becoming one of those "but why?" questioning children that never stop asking questions. Not necessarily a bad thing though. When I started my degree they told me I would learn to think. Oh boy, do I think!! Every day I spend my time thinking about the world, the universe, and beyond! Sounds cheesey, but it's happening! Again, not necessarily a bad thing. Yes, I do spend my time reading the History of Philosophy, but I don't think you can put Philosophy into a historical box: it's happening all the time, as you read it you're forced to think about it and make a judgement.
The consequence of this? A big fat test of my faith. In my head there's a constant struggle between concepts of truth, faith, rationality vs spirituality, knowledge and wisdom etc etc. I've grown up with "Jesus is the truth" but when I hear that know my mind goes into overdrive simply about the word "truth". Yet, this is why I am doing this degree. Let's see if I can come out at the other end of the three years still claiming to know Jesus is the truth. Let's see if God does have all the answers.
Been reading some cool stuff in the bible recently in a bid to make sense of everything. Some might argue this isn't a legitimate proof of anything-how do you know it's the Word of God and all that- but it's the same as reading any other "philosophy"- at some point you just have to decide if it's true or not.
Thought I might as well include the stuff I'm reading:
From 1 Corinthians 1:
19As the Scriptures say,
"I will destroy human wisdom
and discard their most brilliant ideas."[c]
20So where does this leave the philosophers, the scholars, and the world's brilliant debaters? God has made them all look foolish and has shown their wisdom to be useless nonsense. 21Since God in his wisdom saw to it that the world would never find him through human wisdom, he has used our foolish preaching to save all who believe. 22God's way seems foolish to the Jews because they want a sign from heaven to prove it is true. And it is foolish to the Greeks because they believe only what agrees with their own wisdom. 23So when we preach that Christ was crucified, the Jews are offended, and the Gentiles say it's all nonsense. 24But to those called by God to salvation, both Jews and Gentiles,[d] Christ is the mighty power of God and the wonderful wisdom of God. 25This "foolish" plan of God is far wiser than the wisest of human plans, and God's weakness is far stronger than the greatest of human strength.
26Remember, dear brothers and sisters, that few of you were wise in the world's eyes, or powerful, or wealthy when God called you. 27Instead, God deliberately chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose those who are powerless to shame those who are powerful. 28God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important, 29so that no one can ever boast in the presence of God.
From 1 Peter 1:
7These trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—and your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being tried by fiery trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.
8You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him, you trust him; and even now you are happy with a glorious, inexpressible joy. 9Your reward for trusting him will be the salvation of your souls.
15Christ is the visible image of the invisible God. He existed before God made anything at all and is supreme over all creation.[d] 16Christ is the one through whom God created everything in heaven and earth. He made the things we can see and the things we can't see—kings, kingdoms, rulers, and authorities. Everything has been created through him and for him. 17He existed before everything else began, and he holds all creation together.
1In the beginning the Word already existed. He was with God, and he was God. 2He was in the beginning with God. 3He created everything there is. Nothing exists that he didn't make. 4Life itself was in him, and this life gives light to everyone. 5The light shines through the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.10But although the world was made through him, the world didn't recognize him when he came.
Always come back to this: rationality is not everything. If we discount spirituality then we are not doing justice to the nature of a human being. There is spirit, and there is spiritual truth. There are things reason wont disclose. This isn't empiricism. Spinoza says we are thinking and extended things and so can only concieve of thought and extension as attributes, yet God has infinite attributes. We are spirit, God is spirit, I know God through spirituality. Not a good enough answer for some. Good enough for me.
Just wrote REALLY long entry about big old deep stuff going on in my head, and then went a deleted it.
If you're interested ask me!
Em's coming tomorrow for the weekend-wooo!
(again, if interested ask me!)
January 20, 2005
What's happening with me…?
Something and nothing
Just plodding on really. Not feeling particularly woo but not feeling particularly :(. Think I'm tired….there's a nice change!
Got a blockbusters card today, on the off chance I'm ever in there without Tara…
As for the whole degree thing…feeling a bit better about Aesthetics, having spoken to Darren about possible stuff for assessed essay. Was really helpful. English a lot better as well. HMP is hard going but feel like my mouth and nose are still above the water. What else do I do? Oh, yeah, Ethics…all good.
January 13, 2005
How amazing the Learning Grid is. If you haven't been before I would def recommend it! It's obviously not everybody's thing, but the combination of comfy chairs, food, mobile phone, the occasional brew and a bit of chatage with Michelle and KoT were a winner for me!
Also learnt yesterday how to eat with my left hand only. Also learnt to make sure the oven gloves fully cover the area of skin you are placing into the oven.
Today I learnt that if you go to the gym two weeks running you wont die.
January 06, 2005
Something I learnt today…that if you pour in the remainders of your (free) can of Vanilla Diet Coke into the remainders of your (not free) glass of milk and leave it over night, in the morning it will be particularly minging.
Also learnt today that if I went to the gym I wouldn't actually die as suspected.
January 02, 2005
So, since the last post…there's been christmas. That was wickedy. Went to my sister and bro-in-law…aaall goood. Generally feel like I've had a very relaxing time since I've been home.
There's been New Year. Went to Chris' party- as always was muchos fun.
There's been the transportation of my belongings and person back to Cov. All good there.
What I'm thinking about for this term…
Kidz Club?? This happens on a saturday morning in coventry. Basically you pick up a load of kids and entertain them for the morning. Thinking this is gonna be a really good way to get involved in city-wide children's work and actually get into the community and do stuff etc etc. Whether I'll actually get off my bum and do it is another story.
Also, my New Years resolution was to learn a new skill and I would reeeeally love to learn sign language (and have for as long as I can remember). Think I need to do some research into this…