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It's a long story…

I would like to think of myself as a nice person. I would like to think of myself as a caring person. I would like to think of myself as a friendly person. I would like to think of myself as a well respected person, but we all know that last one just ain't true, but that's a subject for another blog entry…

Anyway, I try to take an interest in my friends' lives; I try to care for my friends; I try to support my friends; I try to be concerned when they seem upset or seem to have a problem.

That is, I try…

It's not easy when everything is "a long story" or "none of my business", despite the fact that it would have been had my head been turned 90^o to the left or the right.

I also never get told anything. For example, for the past year I've been in charge of the Front of House of Warwick Student Cinema, and I heard from the Technical Officer that some people thought the FoH staff could be a bit nicer. Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy and I like having him as I friend (I may not be his friend; he may think I'm a twat, but again my lack of self esteem is the subject for another entry…), but why the hell didn't these people tell me. I was the one who could have tried to do something about it. I always try to be nice, polite, friendly. If people don't tell me anything, they can't expect me to know everything. I try to; I'm somewhat of a perfectionist. If someone, a year ago, had said to me "By the way, DM Meetings really need to be announced on USFA", I'd have announced that there was a DM Meeting. I'd have preferred that to people telling another DM that it needs to be announced.

I get the impression that some people don't seem to think I'm trustworthy. I feel this may be due to the fact I've never had the chance to prove that I am, because no–one ever tells me anything the requires trust because they don't think I'm trustworthy…
It's a vicious circle…

Also, I do "want to know". Logically, I must "want to know"; I asked, didn't I. If there's something that I "don't want to know" that I'm asking you about, I'd be surprised if I didn't know the area it concerned…
If I know what it's likely to concern, and I'm asking for elaboration, I obviously "want to know"; again, taking an interest in friends' lives.
I don't believe I have ever come across anything that truly offended me. There's not much I dislike, I just like things to varying degrees. I even quite liked Hulk and Blade Trinity (but still, vampire dogs). The same with people; there are very few people I dislike, and even less that I hate (I believe I hate 2 people out of everyone I've ever met, and you won't know either of them).

If people don't seem to want to be cared about, I don't know why I bother, but I'm going to keep trying to care; it's who I am.

Anyway, that's all I wanted to say…

: 22 Feb 2005 01:11 |  Tags: A Long Story Friends Nice Person Rant Seriousness |  Comments (1) |  Close comments |  Report a problem