All entries for Monday 28 November 2005
November 28, 2005
I used to tell my friends everything but I guess after some bad experiences with friends, I no longer trust friends as much as I would like to. It is just my nature to share joy and keep my sorrows.
As for friends telling me stuffs, I normally won't bug them to tell me if they don't. But I would love of course to hear from them. And if I ever bug you to tell me stuffs, it is because I truly regard you as a close friend. Otherwise why would I be bothered.
Friends come and go in my life. Some more special than others. I have had so many close friends who enter my life briefly. I felt so sad when I had to part with them. There was even a point in my life that I thought perhaps I should not put so much into friendships because at the end of the day, it is the inevitable parting which pains my heart.
I told this to a friend I met last year and she told me something so beautiful. She said 'Perhaps it is God's way of telling you that everything in life is so impermanent.'
I also realised that God was there for me through my most painful moments in my life. He was always there in me,giving me strength.
I gave up on friends because I lost faith in them. But God just keep sending amazing friends into my life. As if He is asking me not to give up on frienships just because of nasty experiences.And I feel that indeed I am learning once more to embrace friendships and open my heart to trust friends just like before.
Friends are people who love you for the real you that you are.
I am grateful to be surrounded by these people who loves me just for the me that I am.