Well the exam went ok. Ok so it didn't, it was hard and I bullshitted a lot of it. Thats the first time ever Ive had a really bad exam, and it's pissed me off big time. Exams are really stressing me out, I don't have time to revise for them all enough to do as well as I could (ok so thats my fault for not starting earlier) and its cut me off from everything else in the world, friends, fun, Ultimate, Girlfriend and life in general.
Its not that I don't think I'll pass. I know I will pass. But this is the crunch, I need a 2:1 or higher next year to even consider applying for the Masters course I want to go on. This year is worth 40% of my degree and it should be easier than next year.
Maybe I should have a big think over the summer if I should really be trying to go for this masters.
The main point is that I want to prove to myself that Im not stupid. Everyone always puts down Psychology students, as if its not a "real" degree, and that "its not hard". Some of its not particularly hard, there is just so much to learn. But if you think it's a piece of piss then care to explain the dual-center theory of eating to me please, to hint: it includes the Ventro-Medial Hypothalamus and the Lateral Hypothalamus. Or maybe Sherrif's Realistic Conflict Theory and some models of agression.
Ive always been last in the family, my brother is a big medical student in Bristol always doing amazingly well, Ive always just been the fun one. My family are all clever, I need to prove that Im not stupid. Call it pathetic, but thats it.
For now, Im gonna have a cup of tea + bath and then cram Social for tomorrow. I'll be getting up early and cramming some more. Hopefully I'll be able to answer some exam questions from past papers. If not, I'll be pissed.