All entries for Sunday 13 May 2007
May 13, 2007
My energy levels are rising all the time I now have a fullish head of hair, althugh it looks like baby curls - if you can imagine a baby with grey hair! I still have days when the energy goes, but they are getting fewer.
I am now back on the Herceptin. Apparently I should not worry about a weakened heart, which is the reason the treatment was stopped for a few weeks. This is good news and I hope the next test will also be positive so I can finish the treatment. The downside of having Herceptin is that I get a headache for about 24 hours and flu-like symptoms. But it should all be finished by September.
I have started back to work two half days a week. I really find after a morning I am not much good for anything else for the afternoon. It's resting, relaxation and meditation for me. I hope this will get easier as my energy returns. I have mixed feelings about going back. On the one hand it is good to do something that is not focusing on me, on the other hand I am concerned about returning to unchanged circumstances which were stressful. Both the clinical health psychologist and my herbal medicine practitioner are concerned that I will find it difficult to have the strength to deal with things.
I am using the Active Chi Therapy, acupuncture, relaxation and meditation to help, but unlearning negative feelings and thoughts is hard, particularly when my body says it is feeling uncomfortable. But the two half days a are do-able. I get a lot of support from the other activities and Tai Chi, which all help me keep my equanimity.
On the social side I have recently seen Three Sisters in Russian (with surtitles- my Russian is somehwat limited) at the Arts Centre. An amazing production from Cheek by Jowl. I have not see the play for many years, but using Russian actors really helped capture the atmosphere.
I have also been away for a week-end in the Cotswold. The Four Marys, Michael calls us (if you remeber Bunty) as we all taiught Maths in Central London 30 years ago, all get together once a year to shoot the breeze, play bridge and dine out. Always good fun and it made me feel really good, although we had to slow down a bit as I got tired.
Life is generally good and can only get better!