All entries for June 2006
June 21, 2006
…as soon as we are sure what is normal anyway.
In other words, this is my apology for being in a fairly rubbish mood this week. This weekend, I was fine, and I thought things (my mood in particular) were looking up. But this week I've so far been rubbish. I've so far bitten Sam's head off and not even attempted to join in the MC BBQ, which is definitely not right. (Instead, I have been sitting at home teaching myself Beatles songs on the guitar – hurrah!)
I'd say I don't know what's up, but I do. The problem is, it (on top of everything else, such as not sleeping and the feeling that there's not enough hours in a day) is really getting to me, way more than I should. I should be able to deal with this, and I definitely shouldn't be taking it out on other people, so those I've moaned to/yelled at/sobbed at, I really do apologise. I don't know what's gotten into me at the moment. Yeah, it's easy to put it down to stuff, but that should make it easier to solve, and it doesn't. I don't know why I can't just let go of what's upsetting me and be done but it seems that I can't. And it's making me feel like a rubbish person for being so… well, rubbish. I know Matt told me not to be too hard on myself, and he's right – I shouldn't be. At times like this I'm my own worst enemy as I tend to blame myself for not doing the right thing, even though I can see that a) I'm trying to, and b) I'm hurting, so I really do need to just let up. Easier said than done though, eh?
So just bear with me for the next few days/week or so. I'll be fine in the end, I just need to get through this (bizarrely) rough patch. And bear in mind that if I say I need to be alone, I probably do need to be alone, and half an hour with a book and a cuppa, or a long walk somewhere, will probably do me the best of good.
And don't worry. This malaise really won't last if I have anything to do with it!
June 18, 2006
My iPod's fixed! Yay! :–)
Thanks to all who suggested what it could be/how to solve it. In the end I was so amazed that it was working (and feeling a bit of a fool because the bloke had to install some software on it) I completely forgot to ask what was wrong. But that doesn't matter, because in this instance Apple's customer service was amazing. I showed up for my appointment at the Apple store and explained what was wrong to the guy. He then took the iPod, disappeared for 5 minutes and came back with it working! And when I asked how much the repair cost, he replied, "Nothing. It's still under warranty." All of which made me very happy :) And between that and the cool stuff on display in the store, I'm now very tempted to get a Mac as my next computer, so well done Apple!
Pretty good weekend all round, really :–)
June 15, 2006
My iPod's died :'–(
Anyone who knows anything about these things – help! It's doing the folder with the exclamation mark thing. I've reset it – still doing it. I've connected it to the PC, at which point it came up saying "Do not disconnect" as per, except it was in a completely different font, didn't seem to be in colour (it's an iPod photo, a year and a half old) and looked like something you'd get on an older iPod. So I went to the Apple website, and it told me to restore the thing, but I can't because the PC's not recognising the iPod – it does nothing when I plug it in except charge it, it doesn't appear in iTunes, and the nearest I've got to it appearing on the PC itself is a message saying "Windows does not recognise this USB device. It appears to have malfunctioned." Yeah, cheers for that…
So I searched further on the Apple website, and it said to set the thing to disk mode. Done – it's coming up with what it says it should say, "OK to disconnect", but the lettering's still in a weird style, though. And the PC still won't recognise it. All the iPod updater software says is "iPod service error", even after I installed the latest software. AAAAAARGH!!!
So given that tomorrow's gone (Alton Towers, woooo!) and Saturday too due to Renegade (unless I go reeeeeeeally early… hmmm) it looks like my iPod won't get fixed till next week… How am I going to cope? And what if it's not back for Tour?! Can't cope without my iPod for Tour, it's the thing that keeps me sane…
Any suggestions gratefully received.
Not only does the West End version of the Lion King have an amaaaaaaaazing flute part (I think they said in the programme they used 19 different ethnic flutes!) but the cowbell part's pretty cool too :)
Anyone want to submit it for MTW…? (Not an entirely serious suggestion, incidentally – I know we wouldn't get the rights and that it would be seriously hard to stage…)
The show itself is amazing though, and both my mum and I agreed it was the best musical we'd seen in a long time. Highly recommended.
June 10, 2006
… I'll put up all the photos from Whit Friday. For now, you'll have to make do with this!
The University of Warwick Brass Society: Teaching Lecturers to Strike Since 2006!
June 07, 2006
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, the module of doom is over. Having got 4 hours' sleep last night, and been woken up this morning by the sound of the rest of our house getting up (all 5 of us sitting the one module), I was worried I'd have no concentration in the exam. And I did have a couple of "What on earth am I saying here/I'm completely waffling, aren't I?" moments, not least in my 2nd essay where I seemed to lose my train of thought completely. But then came my third essay which I felt I did really well on. Still had the odd wandering off–topic/waffling moment, but I turned it around, and the odd times I thought "This is rubbish, isn't it?" I realised it sounded like rubbish a critic would write, and felt better :)
Hyperness due to having got exam out the way and done ok in it, and having followed this up with a good flute lesson, is wearing off now and the need to sleep is setting in. But first, I think I'll go and sit out in the sun reading. Hurrah!
And start revising again. Boo. Hiss.
June 06, 2006
Follow-up to Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww from The Blog of Lu
… I still went to Top B. Hee hee :)
And it actually seemed like a sensible idea! I've not been to the Union since School Days at the start of this term, and I really enjoyed myself in spite of not drinking. That and it was a reward to myself for now being able to talk about the Victorian crisis of masculinity amongst poets with reference to the poems of Matthew Arnold and some of the poems of Tennyson. Tomorrow: rest of Tennyson, hopefully Robert Browning, and finish off the Romantics/generally consolidate everything, and tell myself that I do know stuff. Enough to get a 2:1, anyway.
On an unrelated note, am liking the URL for the previous entry. Liking less the amount of space emails relating to it take up!
June 05, 2006
The blisters. They still hurt. Walking is difficult.
I have an exam on Wednesday and although I've put loads of work in – more than I've done in any exam I've ever taken before now, I mean I've even done background reading! – I feel I don't know anywhere near enough. Speaking to others on my course and to my housemates doesn't help. Plus I'm not convinced that the stuff I revised last week has gone in, leaving me tomorrow to not only finish off my revision but to consolidate everything else.
Can't really afford to take the rest of Wednesday off, either, due to it being Whit Friday this Friday! Wooooo! Just hope I can walk again by then.
I may be ever so slightly stressed and have had a cup of strong tea before this blog entry. Oh dear.