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April 13, 2010

THE WIERD Punch and Judy Show

The cave opened.

Unclenched stone muscle;

efflorescence of the arthritic rose. The slither of sun

cut the mountain skin

and darkness trickled out / puss-puddly-ooze.

Simon munched on air, thoughtfully.

and thoughtfully,

munching on air, Simon opened

his writer and typed ‘Ooze

me a word, muscle

me a skin –

I must hide from the sun’

Clickety-clack, a basso clicks the new typewriter

( chicken bones and tin foil). A sun-

striped donkey, a zebra in fact, thoughtfully

investigated this strange noise - the skin

of his silence has been opened

by the typewriter flexing its muscle.

The darkness continued to ooze.

The darkness continued to ooze

from the cave; rivers emptied by the sun.

Meantime Simon pulled his bicep muscle

throwing stones at the zebra, who realised that ‘thoughtfully’

as a career choice had been a mistake. The zebra opened

his legs and farted in derision. ‘Keep your skin!’

he shited,

and high-kneed off in the direction of the mountain’s kin:

(New York was a horizon of skyscrapers fed by sewage ooze.

- the most drinkable water in the U.S (the adverts promised))

The cave opened.

Where the dark had been, shadows echoed the sun.

Simon Zebra (his adopted name defeating the sun-striped donkey)

               echoed the echoes thoughtfully

and the new age type writer continued to flex his muscle.

So far the typewriter and not Simon have been the muscle

of this story. In rectification Simon opens his mouth, the fifth hole in his skin,

and forms a question slowly, thoughtfully:

‘Where are the other four holes of the mountain, where, from ooze

to torrents, darkness floods the world, for only half of Time lies in the sun?’

He wrote it down so as not to forget. Unlike a cave, the mouth cannot remain opened.

The muscles of his finger tips tightened as he opened

his beer. Thoughtfully he sipped the frothy ooze

and retreated into the cave. His head-skin was red from the sun.


April 28, 2009

No Separation

Born from different wombs I love you

As if we were the same being

And seeing you cry

just made you love me more

when I hold you, I want to hold you

so much that you tranfuse through my chest

into my heart – no separation.

Love hurts I’ve discovered,

but what am I to do

When you have a spirit and soul to match your

Heaven-mirrored beauty

That’s it –

You mirror heaven and I stand in front of you

And am struck dumb and in awe.

Remember the silly hobo-child from the other-side

Of the valley.

He remembers you.

The explosion in his heart wont let him forget.


The Evening Water

Crawling across the evening waters

           Golden worms and caterpillars

Born of the crystal street lamps

           That decorate the river highway.

The blind blacksmith with the one silver eye

           left just a minute ago

Having told me of Ireland and the fall

          And I am left on the tall banks -

of the water, that gently kiss

          the whispering reeds.


April 15, 2009

Jyoti’s Painting

          Decorated in willow leaves

And painted in watery moonlight

          That ran down her slender arms

          Trickling trippingly off her fingertips

She held a child in her arms.

          Nestled in her breast-

          Grouse hidden in heather.

Hidden from the disjointed etches

The lonely artist has made of this life

       The scratches that carve out

       The crown and the cross.

But mother and son are born from

A different imagination.


April 11, 2009

Most of the time

Most of the time I’m with it, I’m pretty strong

I have my finger on the pulse of her neck

Beat Beat Beat (clap clap clap)

I measure it out and out

But not always

Toot toot toot

Most of the time-

The jazzy saxophone carries me off.

But sometimes music don’t chase that wolf away

HaaaWoooo

He’s here and his pack too

Most of the time isn’t this time.

Shit man its time to run

The clouds are coming

And the train is chugging

Pretty fast too.

I can read the signs, figure the situation

I’m not billy blind

Most of the time

But the moon don’t shine tonight

The clouds are coming

You see needs must when the devil rides

Where’s the crossroads,

Wheres the sign

I never been there

No siree

Not I

So why does the wolf pierce me with yellow eyes

Fill the empty caverns with her cries

I’m a wolf

Lone and out

You see most of the time

Isn’t this time


April 01, 2009

The Church Cross (Eve and Adam)

The silhouette stands as a reminder

Against the red heart of the setting sun

Who tired and rusty, lay down to rest

But the church cross stands there still

through the night and moon

And against that red beating heart

We talked in the garden of other things

though the church cross stood there still

through the night and moon

that swam slowly through the deep half of the sky,

We talked in the garden of other things

We forgot the cross and the sun and moon

that swam slowly through the deep half of the sky,

rather forgetting what was told not to forget

Yes we forgot the cross and the sun and moon-

But if this original sin then I am glad I am in it with you

And I’d rather forget what was told not to forget

even as I raise my brown soft eyes I remember

That if this original sin then I am glad I am in it with you

as tired and rusty, we lay down our head to rest

Though even as I raise my brown soft eyes I remember -

The silhouette stands as a reminder


February 16, 2009

Over the hill

Fortune twitched, entwined

     in a violet woven vine.

The setting sun winks upon

     the one who would be mine.

She sat on top the hill

     as the train rolled half past four

taking me away - the moon

     gently shuts the door.


Eyes of Angels

A room full of mirrors reflecting forevers

renders reality as fragile as April ice

and in the shimmer of the spiders silk threaded web

lives the silver droplet of the world in a sunbeam.


Rows and Throws

We hit the top of the valley with youthful bounce and lay our eyes over scenes of green golden madness.

"Light your pipes and fill your jars" I scream across the sky dome,

"We are change and more besides"

Whipping up tunes of the old days we commence our journey of sight and mind and the girls

The girls in rows and throws laughing throw us rose crowns and thongs as we gallop out in Arthurian quest.

She's on my mind as a newness rolls on past, though I'd rather her not be.

She sends me into mad chaos, what I would do for those hips and lips, her love.  Her innocence of energy galls me.

              If only she would throw me rose crowns and thongs.


February 13, 2009

I saw you that night

Think how far you have fallen O Morning Star.

I saw you that night,

In the beauty of the hills

as the ocean blew against the rocks.

The sun, a smoking fire pot and a flaming torch

blessed the earth and then

         surrendered to the night.


January 27, 2009

bracken valley

Walking through the blue bell wood, the smell ringing in my ears

I think of the little men who walked here for the first breath of this particular smell.

She eyed them with panic and ran fast

into the crevices of the bracken valley

Now Old John’s wood piles lie heavy among the tracks

           Marking targets for the human arrow

But even they are being forgot and forget why they are here

           Sinking into the false memory of point and reason

I carry upwards, my legs aching with the rhythm,

trying hard to keep the beat (the beat that carries me away)

Below the path, a stream sings down the scale of the incline

           Flirting with the early summers sun.

That cuts hard shaft of musty dusted light

           Through the verticals of the wood

The birdies in contrapuntal grace glide over and

above this orchestral morning.

We always were susceptible to beauty and its truth

           Often touching it with our toes before

Withdrawing almost involuntarily from the shock.

I emerged that day from leafy shade onto the top of the open crest

a feel of loss

The sun was out, was riding the arched dome to 11 o’clock

           And painted the view in rich summer colour

loss because this that was in front of me

           That once fed us with the food freely and in brotherhood

Is recognised nowt by the locals and the others

           Though it lies here in my palm and burns it.

And there I saw her as before she had been seen

           Upright and muscle bound in curves

She wore golden eyes and golden fur

           And for a moment held my vision

In curiosity. I begged her to stay, to comfort me that no bond had been broken

          

But my she bounded away in fright

                                             Into the crevices of the broken valley.


January 23, 2009

zebedee the stonecutter

To Fr William

‘This is a tale I heard from a devout priest who lived in a very remote village. The people looked to him as a judge, looked to him for happiness. Over tea and chess, among trees and Christmas moons, he told me this story.’

Once upon a time, for all stories must start as such, there lived an old stone cutter, Zebedee, who worked for an older stonecutter who sold his stone to the nearby hamlets that nestled hidden in the wooded valleys of the area.  He was the happiest man in the world.  He was very poor but everyday he would go to work cutting stone.  Go to work cutting away at the stout mountains, the giants that he lived under.  They were his friends, his work partners.  He was happy and content.  Everyday he would sing:

'O Lordy, pick a bit a cotton' O Lordy pick a bit a hay, O Lordy I am a mountain, O Lordy I grow a bit a day'

Then after forty years of such happy days, he was asked to do some work for a rich man, a very rich man.  He was astounded by the wealth and comfort that the man lived in.  The fire which the servants built, the silver cutlery placed upon the table, the plumbing so that the rich man might have a hot bath; all of this the stone cutter perceived and wanted.  He became jealous and disgusted at the poverty in which he was living, he wanted to be like the rich man, be him.

That night when he was saying his prayers, he confronted God. 'O Lord' he said, 'all my life I have prayed to you, thanked you, sacrificed for you, glorified you.  Every Sunday I have attended the mass. Why then am I poor, and the man I have been working for rich, who has not an icon of you in his house.  Will you not make me rich?'  God heard his prayer and because he was a devout man, he appeared as a voice to the stonecutter. 'Because you are humble and holy and live in faith, I will give you six wishes. Do with them as you will and may you learn much by it'

That very night the stonecutter wished into the wind that he could be indeed a rich man, a very very rich man.  As soon as the words had disappeared into the silence, he found himself in such house the like of which he had never seen.  Servants lightly running across the stone hall floor to make ready the duck for burning, to make up the goose feathered beds.  There was that smell of incense and leather and food and big fires and most of all of money.

The stonecutter was happy. He lay in his bed all day ringing his bells and singing his praises to the Lord. He would not have to work ever again. The workers who worked on his vineyards would mind the income, while he would be able to enjoy himself, live the life of leisure. He soon found a lovely wife and had lovely children. He would go fishing on his river and shooting on his land. Money seemed to run through the walls. Yes indeed the stonecutter was very happy.

Then after 5 years of living thus he got a letter, saying the king, having heard of his wealth and reputation, was coming to stay for the weekend. Panic ensued, at least panic amongst everyone apart from the stonecutter who was determined to remain happy and untroubled. But then the king arrived and the stonecutter’s mind was troubled.

Here was the king. He entered and people bowed. After him a line of beautiful people, there to do his every bidding. Here was a man who had power over the richest in the country. To gather his thoughts Zebedee took a walk in the gardens. Lighting a cigarette he noticed shapes bucking in the gloom.  Seeing closer he saw a hundred gold clad horses tied to the trees, beautiful black servants tending after each one. And to the biggest tree was tethered the mightiest horse, in shining silver silk and peacock feathers that rose from his brow. He wanted to touch it, to ride it. But before he could lay its hands on its arched back he felt a cold on his neck, a blade to his heart. ‘Touch the kings horse, and your life is mine’ a cold whisper ran through his ear. Backing away he looked around. There was no one there.

At the table of supper, the stonecutter could not take his eyes off the king. He was radiant with smiles, everyone one was drawn to him. Delicacies offered to him. Even his wife, who had not talked to her husband all night, would not leave the king alone. Surely this was true happiness, power and love, brought together under a ring of gold metal.

‘I wonder what his court must be like;

overflowing with full fountains and naked concubines,

wine rivers that never dry.’

Money brings a certain amount of happiness, but what is that next to the power of God’s anointed one. And then he remembered after five years the Lord’s promise to him. And that night, in its depths, his wife snoring gently beside him, he wished to be king.

And he was.

The bells chimed over the crisp winter’s day, ringing like a frost. A new king was chosen. Long live the king. Hallelujah!  Children laughed down the city streets. No one was sad. There was food on the table of the very poorest to celebrate this very special day.

And yes the wine was flowing, concubines to fill a giant’s bed: ten to a bed and some to hang on the walls. He had soldiers to fly to the furthest points of the earth; Explorers who were willing to set sail to Singapore, to gather the rarest spices, risk execution on native fires. All for a shake of his royal hand. Princesses and queens from France and Spain would queue at the feet of the throne, begging for his hand in marriage, with eyes of green jewels, white as snow, some as black as marble. These were women that seemed to be carved by the ringed hand of Gods. Everything belonged to the stonecutter; there was nothing he did not own, and yes in his heart he was happy. No one had power over him, was richer than him, and to his mind was happier than him.

But the Lord had given him six wishes and six wishes for a reason.

One high summers morning, at that time when the sun is reaching the top of his cycle, his chariot arching the dome of the sky, around eleven hours of the morning, the king, the stonecutter sat in his garden throne. His concubines fanned him, and elephants stood tall, keeping him in shade. His queen fed him mountain water from an emerald cup. But heat does not travel in straight lines. It suffocated him, and sweat poured from him, seeping through his garments of silk and linen.

‘It is too hot! Someone do something; keep the sun from my head.’

He became angry, and sent his court away.

Storming around the garden, he finally sat down, fuming from his skin, under the mango tree. He thought:

So this is it. There are things in heaven and on earth, more powerful than I; things that I as a human cannot control. The sun is hurting me and I cannot make him stop. Under the mango tree the stonecutter made his third wish. He wished to be the sun.

And there he found himself, hung like a radiant orange, in the vastness of the Universe; the mighty tree, from which is born creation. He beat down on the earth, like the silver droplet of dew on the spider’s web, a tiny speck in his universal beam. He was the source of happiness, the source of life. With light the world turns in contented movement. He was the guardian of the nebulous star crusted way, and saw distant stars; his brothers fling themselves across the painted golden decked skies. He lived within a realm where his imagination had never reached, among the sacred colours of beauty. It was like, he thought, a mighty fire having just been put out, embers burning, vibrating eternally.

And there he reined all summer, in the centre of the galaxy, Jupiter, Mars, Pluto all paying homage to him and Zeus, the earth as well. He was all powerful, and so he was happy. He was the sun, the God of gods. He was all.

And then came the winter. Came the winter and the clouds, and his light, his happiness, his power was blocked. He could not reach the people of the earth.

‘What?! Here am I, sat on the heavens, I have reached the top, and now I find that I am on the bottom. The world cannot see me, they cannot feel me. Even the sun must bow before others.’

Zebedee the Sun, knowing that he had not yet found true happiness, as the night came closing in, wished upon a star.

Rolling and tumbling like great drifts of artic snow, he found himself as a cloud floating through the atmosphere. He had conquered the sun and now could feed the earth with his water.

He started at the ocean breaking, and as the wind blew him towards the rising mountains, he became fuller, then fuller, until bursting at the core, with the world’s water. Rising and rising until exploding, swirling crashing onto the cliffs of the land. And then came the rain, a torrent of water skydiving towards the earth, each droplet riding the waves of gravity, splashing into the rock pools of the gargling mountain streams. Fish rose as they do during such showers and the fisherman in their gum boots and their coats set out, braving the weather, to haul the catch; that later would cook slow over the fires, the rolly polley wives tending to the meal, the rain pattering upon the tin roofs of the houses.

And when he had done, when there was no more to give, the earth looked up to him, green and fresh, baptised flowers that were full in bloom, and praised him with nature’s song. But the stonecutter could not smile back. He did not feel fresh and satisfied or willing to let the light of the sun in to the world. He was not happy. Through the storm he had noticed the path of water running, being split, chopped and changed by the giant rocks that stood in the way. Even now he had not power over all. He had not achieved what he wanted. These rocks, and where they grew, were the judges on where he could go, where he travelled. They determined his route to the sea. Yet still he must change to find what he was looking for.

As a rock he stood for a thousand years. Time had little consequence, and was a shallow river, he himself having his roots deep in the riverbed. Kings came and went, forests were planted and then chopped down and floods arrived and were gone. Storms were angry at Zebedee, cracking him with a lightning wrath. But such was the rock of Zebedee that little was effected. He watched everything that passed him and gained much knowledge by it. But with time grew the advance of the human hand. And though the stonecutter stood in the most untouched region, a mountain range that no eyes had ever looked upon, one day he spied a lone tiny figure scrambling over the brambles and boulders panting with the determination of someone that needed to make a living (for the stonecutter a most far off memory).  The man fell at his feet and lit a cigarette.

‘What is he here for?’ thought Zebedee. ‘What does he want from me a mountain?’

But having finished his break the man started working. Zebedee realised what he was here for. The little man started hacking away, picking away at the stone. So this man had power over him. He who had power over the rain, who had power over the sun, who had power over the king, who had power over the rich man, who apparently had power over the stonecutter, and what is power?

With his final wish he became a stonecutter; cutting away at the stones of the land to struggle to above the breadline. But when you’ve got nothing you’ve got nothing to lose. And yes he was happy. That night he realised that he had not prayed for over a thousand years. He laid out his rug, lit the incense, placed a statue of the Virgin Mary before him and bowed his head, and sat, silently holy for an hour.

That morning he awoke. And everything was as he left it all those years ago, before his time as the king and the sun and the clouds. Was it a dream? And yet if it was why could he still see the vibrating heart of the universe before him, the concubines and the elephants, the rivers and oceans of the world. These memories stood before him, vivid in his eyes.

And yes he had learned much by what the Lord had given him. He praised him everyday for his generosity and wisdom. Everyday for the rest of his life he would clamber up the mountains, look at the sun and clouds, wave at the rich men strolling through their gardens, celebrate the King’s birthdays, knowing that he was the happiest man that could ever live

'O Lordy, pick a bit a cotton' O Lordy pick a bit a hay, O Lordy I am a mountain, O Lordy I grow a bit a day'


January 20, 2009

Third Party

What if I was you

And you were me

And we saw in each other

A band of three.

Who is that third person?

Do I imagine he or she or it

What is your name?

Love, Pain, Hate,

Or maybe john or sue down the lane.

And in the train station

(it arrived at half past four)

I saw the creation –

Of the world on the 7th platform,

And that third party

Was orchestrating this particular piece

Gesticulating in the smoke filled space

That was the 5th day; you want me to believe?


note

Follow-up to Life got jealous, but hey he be suppin' ale with the angels now from Uccello

guys I had to do this for a small assignment on the cruellest thing I ever saw.  I didnt want to write something about a cat being beaten with a wet fish. physically couldnt do it. So sorry if this feels all to close to the bone, don't worry about it too much


Life got jealous, but hey he be suppin' ale with the angels now

I do not talk of cruelty of one being to another but rather cruelty of life; a brutality of the natural that cannot be I undone. You cannot defend or save the victims. It is a malevolence of the clock maker that leaves me empty. The walls close in and claustrophobia courses through the arteries, closing them up, as the nightmare reveals in big green lights THERE ARE NO EXITS

My friends you are entering the realms of the magic theatre and it is for madmen only.

The car was rolling down the motorway and I was feeling sick. Ever since Friday when ma had said that because of the operation he only had a 30 % chance of living, this worm-snake creature has been living in my intestines. The doctors said he’d pull through. He had some kind of liver disease and needed a transplant. It was strange though, he was the most jovial character I’d met; 18, red in the face and a pint in the hand, cigarettes out of mouth nose and ears. Laughing, smiling, and spinning he really didn’t care about anything that mattered and was always good to talk to. You could tell by the light in his eyes that he’d found whatever it is that we look for. Is that thing happiness? Only those who have gone beyond the line know the answer. The week before I’d headed into the local public house and been visibly shocked that he wasn’t there. The girls said he’d not been into college for a week, called in sick. Fair enough but bloody hell he’d have to pretty sick not to head over the road to the Pub. That was his home. Something was nagging at me, something was not right. The worms were spreading through into my chest, into my limbs; it was only a matter of time till I’d be strangled. I was pinprick sweating as Dylan feeble crooned out of the car speakers. No talking. We drove past a stone workshop called Well Stoned. Pete and me smiled at each other in the back. A weak attempt to drive away the armies of panic that were invading.

We arrived at the hospital. Cold, uninviting, reminded me of a submarine; no way out with a limited supply of breath.

I tell you sincerely this was the most haunting experience of my life, and I pray that you will never hear and see what I saw. We entered the floor that his bed was on. Mary came through the doors looked at us, stopped. Looked at ma, her closest friend, and screamed as she fell into her arms. He’s going to die (there’s no way out) He’s going to die. She rocked in my mum’s arms. That scream. That scream. That scream. This is the cruellest thing I have seen and heard: The sound of a mother whose lost her son. I remember that moment and I don’t think I’ve ever moved away from it. I hit my head on the wall, trying to bang the reality out. He had cancer. It started two weeks ago; an aggressive bastard that had destroyed something so dear that I cannot quite describe with words. He had grown too big for Life, outgrown it. Life got jealous and threw him out.

Over his yellow, blood stained bed as he mumbled in a morphine-induced coma that he’d never awake from, we said the Our Father. As we stood there in silence my brother spoke through our tears

May the Road rise before you, may the wind always be on your back.

May you be half an hour in heaven before the devil knows your dead

And may we meet at another time, in another place.

And surely we must.

So, on reaching the churchyard gates,
Shadow written and alone,
Our journey's end, the final fate,
I knelt by his strange stone
And read silently his epitaph,
That stone carved text:

'Paradise we build in this life
Our household for the next'


January 10, 2009

To look out your window

Have a look out your window, lady

just for a moment,

and in the Turin shrouded valley night

see my face in the reflection.

I shall look out of mine, upon the eyes of suburbian

ring road lamps

and see your delicate face casting eyes back at me,

soft and touching.

For that moment smile, a gentle kiss, clouding with hot breath

the icy glass pane,

and know that miles away, I am touching your lips

and comfort in their warmth.

I am the reflection in your window,

you are the reflection in mine.


December 11, 2008

work in progress


Silly love songs

Rows and rows

          of laughing girls

sing silly love songs

           to unsung beats.

But you who stand

so tall and so still

laid in my heart

in the searing heat

I will love you for a life

and do for you what music

once did.


For you

I had my eyes in my pockets for too long                                                                                                                     

upon the murky even' day;

Too long lost in forest of dark oceans

suffocated black in storm.

And then I saw you

             Sat in your jewelled tower that sang like a violin.

A waterfall of midnight and stars

cascading down you fragile rippling body, snowy white shoulders

to breasts, to smooth and round stomach.

Gypsey ringlets and bracelets purple

coloured your lips.  You smiled me awake.

And when there was no smile, your eyes

set alight the waters of my heart.

At the break of day, I was moved and sacred

with the morning birds, danced in masque with the garden statues

                          and with you.

Let us dance then you and I,

with hands and hearts on our songs

through the laughing skies

and join them with a love

To blind a thousand fires, to blind the sun.


Love in Old Suburbia

When I see a girl I want to know what she wants

When I see a man I want to know what he needs;

Their hearts place on a windowsill

and the magpies feather trembling with the echoes

of their space in time.

Love.  and whats not there to love

in the golden carpets of the suburbian gardens

Old Suburbia. Old Eden, when the lass and I

take old ramblings through the hedgerows,

crisp as the apple, moist and juiced

with morning dew.

This is what she wants,

this is what I need.