Out of my hands
I realised today that I have a bit of an issue about what to do on Saturday. I have 2 “choices” but the decision is completely out of my hands. I could go to the council training day (which I have to go to if I’m elected but can’t go to if I’m not) or I could go to Leamington.
Leamington sounds much more fun but I really want to be on the council. I find myself, however, on a random Wednesday evening when I really should be working, really nervous about checking my inbox tomorrow morning. Whatever I end up doing on Saturday is completely out of my hands. I don’t think I’ve ever been in such a situation before. Normally I make my own choices about what I want to do.
This is a really annoying situation for me as I always prefer to be the one who calls the shots on my plans. In a slight moment of madness (though one I do not in any way regret) I took the situation out of my hands and gave it to the people. I do not know what I will be doing on Saturday until I have checked my inbox tomorrow morning.
Democracy is evil! I really was not expecting that my plans for this weekend to be completely dependent on the results of the union council elections.
Disclaimer: I do not actually believe that democracy is evil, just taking the plans for my weekend out of my hands is.