Ready to go back…I think I'm ready to go back to Uni. I've worked pretty much non-stop this holiday, trying to get some money for next term, and I'm constantly exhausted! But the main reason I want to go back, is that I miss the people. My friends all know how much I love them, or at least they should do, and how much I need them. I miss our crazy chats, our lazy coffee's in Raffles, our in-jokes, our nights out, and just generally the group of us spending time together. But a part of me is scared. They've been getting together a lot over the holiday, but because of where I live, and because I've been working so much, I haven't seen them much at all. And so I'm worried, proberbly unnessicerily, that when we go back, they will all know each other so much better than they did when last term ended, and that they will have shared things that, however unintentionally it might be, I have not been a part of. It's stupid, I know that, but the insecure little girl in me can't help but be worried.
I'm a thousand times more confident now than I ever have been, and that's largly down to my friends, but there are always moments, mostly when, like now, I'm struggling to keep my eyes open, but know that I can't sleep because I just have so much to do, when I get frightened, and want nothing more than to be idly wandering around campus with everyone, talking about something completly ridiculous, and knowing that no matter what, we are a close group of friends, of which I am as much a part of as everyone else.
I miss them, I think that's all I'm really saying.