All entries for Tuesday 27 December 2005
December 27, 2005
Do you ever find that you're spending all your time trying to achieve something or to get through a difficult time, and think that when its all over, you won't have anything else to worry about?
I mean, look at exams and education, do we ever get to the end of "achieving" and don't have anything else to do to become successful?
Its like going up a mountain and the peak seems to be just a bit further, but you get there and find that there's a higher peak.
Just when old problems seem to be sorting themselves out and life seems to be settling down, something else pops up and you then have to deal with new challenges.
I don't want to seem like I'm complaining to God, cos there's sooo much that he's done that I'm really thankful for.
I know over the past couple of years, he has really been watching over me and my family, and the one lesson I've learnt is that things happen only in God's time, not my own. So being patient is one of the many virtues I know I should pursue, but being honest, have not achieved yet!
I think I'm still struggling with the idea that I can't do things without God's strength. When things don't go my way, I feel that I've failed. But maybe this wasn't part of his plan, and fighting for the things I think will make me happy, aren't the things that would make me happy after all.
Maybe the answer is to just pursue God, and the other things in life will just happen the way they're meant to happen.
I think I spend too much time worrying about things. Anyway, I've rambled on about stupid things enough already, think it's time to stop.