All entries for Wednesday 15 December 2004
December 15, 2004
now it is "just shoot me". there is only one thing that can make him release, that's have P5 done, which I can not. shame on me。。。what else can you do part from writing down those meaningless sentences，Wen？you wanna be the best？I am doubted。
ok，maybe I shouldnt keep putting down myself。Stop， I know it all the time。what do you think？I have been a student for 18 years。。。bad，that makes me feel worse。。I‘m shutting up。
I almost done the review for 559, worry about how to start on 536 and 301…too many stuffs need to be remember. wish I was concentrated in class and hardworking.
I just noticed that Jun had changed his MSN screen name to "F.C.U.K…". I dunt even know when did he sign in. I think he is still working on P5. It is hard and must give him a lot headache. I do not expect anything from him, I may just fail to hand it in the worst case. Had no idea wut's going on…
I think I am so weak. maybe I never really be strong…There are things in my mind and I am just too shy/afraid to speak them out. like now, I see his name changed, I know what is happening, but I am just so afraid and I can not even say hi to him. Can I do well in anything? I question myself.
I think I shall notice my weakness and try to be strong and stand out. Of course, first of all, have to do well in my studies. Imagine if I had P5 done ahead, he wont be so stressful and having such kinda bad temper right now…
S i g h~ may he overcome the problem soon.