All entries for April 2005
April 26, 2005
I hate the waiting game. My best friend has fallen out with me and at the moment I don't know whether she ever wants to be my friend again, I'm not going to go into why its happened. All I want to do is ask her if she can she herself trusting me again but due to the circumstances I can't actually ask, all I can do is sit here wondering.
I wonder if it is like Schrödinger's cat, perhaps she is both my friend and not my friend at the same time until the point where I actually ask or look. I suppose by that reackoning I should just ask and the question of friendship will be decided, if only things were that simple though, unlike Schrödinger's cat time will more than likely play a part in the final outcome.
I don't really have time to be pondering whether the friendship is over or not though, I have a large-ish feasibility study to do that's due in tomorrow, although to avoid work I found a picture of what I think Schrödinger's cat looked like (before it was put in a box and died of starvation – I guess time did take it's toll after all)
April 21, 2005
I have decided its time to try and change my routine… again! Mainly due to it being exam season, I am going to try and be in bed by 11pm every night and get up early, not at any particular time, but not late. Hopefully I will get back into going to the gym and eating better, especially now I have started cooking 3 meals in one go and freezing them for later, makes having a decent meal easier to have.
Not much else has changed really, still work at Asda although I have kinda moved to the petrol station now, its much better than checkouts! Car failed its M.O.T this morning, mainly rust issues, they quoted just over £200 to fix it, getting another quote from someone back home, probably end up having it done here though, anyway time I was getting to bed, don't want to screw up before I've even started!
April 19, 2005
2 days in a row, and maybe at some spoint I will actually reintroduce content. Hope everyone who has exams is doing ok at them, mine don't start till the 3rd of June, and go on till the 17th. Got 11 of them totalling 20.5 hours. Oh the joy! I suppose I better start some kind of revision some time soon if I want to stand a chance of passing.
For now I will elevate my blogging status by doing something big and clever, yep you've guessed it, a lovely picture of a kitten or two
April 18, 2005
…for me to get back to being who I was, well not quite, I can never be exactly as I was. I will always look at women in a different light and wonder what my feelings for them actually are. I can get everything else back though, starting with blogging again, going to the gym, writing in my journal (no longer left handed as it takes too long) and just generally getting on with life.
So hopefully I shall get back to blogging regularly, I may even spend some time catching up on the entries of my favourite bloggers, who still stand by me and my blog despite how little I have posted, cheers guys!