All entries for Wednesday 16 March 2005
March 16, 2005
We all make mistakes, I am no exception unfortunately, my life seems to be full of them, and they are fairly big ones, they may not be costing people lives (well I hope not anyway) but they are hurting peoples feelings, my own included. I haven't blogged in about 3 weeks either, this isnt really a mistake, just a matter of circumstance, I have had my other mistakes to deal with, I apologise to all my fans (yeah like I had any anyway).
I suppose a quick refresh of my life is probably in order, in the last 3 weeks I have done the unthinkable and fallen in love with a women, she is absolutely amazing but there are complications (isn't there always?), he's a small piece of advice – don't tell a women you're gay if you are then going to fall in love with her, it just makes things very difficult and very confusing for all involved.
I guess it wouldn't be so bad if she didn't feel the same back, but she's fallen in love with me too, so you're probably now thinking what's so bad about that, well basically she has issues because I more or less introduced myself as gay, I guess she feels betrayed and worried it wont work. I just feel confused that she can love me so much but not want to do anything about it. I made it all a bit worse (or perhaps better, I don't know yet) last night by kissing her, she didn't push away, but now she's gone back to struggling to deal with all again.
Oh well, life goes on I suppose…