All entries for Saturday 08 January 2005

Social settings

As you may be aware a few of the power-bloggers got together today to watch the borrowing of one of Sam's DVD's by James. It was supposed to be just the two of them meeting to exchange the DVD but then I suggested I come along to meet Sam, and somehow from there half the world was invited.

I decided i'd trundle along to the publisized event, it was nice to see the people in real life but social get-togethers like that always leave me coming away a bit depressed to be honest, Its nothing to do with the people, they were lovely and didn't say anything nasty at all. I think it just makes me realise stuff about myself that I don't really want to have to think about. I always end up sat there quietly whilst thinking a million different thoughts. I feel so awkward, yet apparently, so I've been told, I'm fairly well received.

I hate this part of me so much that its quite an effort to drag myself along to these kind of things. Sam, who until today only knew me from the blogs and msn, said to me that I am quite quiet in real life. I had warned him of this fact to be fair. He was expecting someone a bit more camp, well it's just not me, I didn't make even one reference that would indicate my sexuality today, despite the fact that they all know my preference. Despite that fact I still can't say simple stuff like "I'd give him one" like James was perfectly capable of doing when Charlie from Busted was discussed, yes thats right folks, James would give Charlie from Busted one.

: 08 Jan 2005 01:25 |  Comments (13) |  Close comments |  Report a problem