All entries for March 2005

March 31, 2005

Catching up

OK, as I have been to 2 gigs this week I thought I ought to catch up a bit and review them, even though other things sorta took over!

Sunday night; Sharon Shannon, The Eliza Carthy Band, and support.

I say and support because I can't remember the name of the Gaelic (probably spelt wrong) trio that opened, although they were very good. It was interesting to hear a set sung completely in the Celtish tongue.
The Eliza Carthy Band are wicked, playing mostly traditional songs tonight, with three fiddles (on occassion), sometimes guitar, a squeeze box of some variety and a tuba for bass! They were a lot of fun, bouncing around the stage, really loving what they were doing. Eliza's voice is marvellous, she retains her accent while singing which I love, and today she had blue hair! Check 'em out if you get chance, well worth it!

Sharon Shannon and co. I wasn't so taken with, as they played just tunes for over an hour which would be great if we were in a sunny field somewhere, not sat in the Farnham hall! They were good, you know, skilled musicians and everything, but it all got a bit samey towards the end.

Tuesday night; Arlen in the RMA, Portsmouth

The great thing with Arlen is you can never be quite sure what you're going to get. They've been playing the same songs pretty much, with some swapped in and out for the past year or so purely because they are too far apart to work on new stuff half the time, and some of the songs they started with three years ago are such firm favourites and so good there's no reason not to play them, and quite frankly if I didn't hear "Lonesome Angel" and "Tom Brown" at some point I am heartily disappointed!
Disappoint is something this band don't do often though. The songs change slightly each time, with a new chord here or new fiddle part there, and in the case of tuesdays more electric guitar solos from Chris, which were excellent! It's amazing to see how the musicians develop as well. Russ' drumming keeps getting better (being at the BIM probably helps!) Lucy's voice will always be fabulous but somehow she keeps improving it, and her guitar skills make me sick with jealousy, one year, possibly one and a half of tuition, she's a natural musician, that's all there is to it. They've started working some of her songs into the set now, so I'm looking forward to hearing more of them. That does mean that now there are three song writers in the band (David, Chris and Lucy) and Simon writing tunes, so even though some of their stuff is traditional, I don't think they can really be faulted on origonality!
I ought to stop this, because I could go on forever. Just check out the website and if you're near Petersfield tonight there are still a few tickets left for the Traders. I'd love to go but have no way of getting there without going with them and missing tea here…again…which I'm trying to make up for after last night's incident!

Keep music live! xxx

This place is confusing

Today's bedtime will be a bit before 7am, but I thought I'd give you a bonus entry of a song. Enjoy!

hold me
Cos that's all you can do right now.
This place is confusing
And I don't don't know if I'llmake it out

It's not a person I'm missing
I'm just a person with a piece gone.

It's not the touch of a hand
It's not even a smile.
It's not the shirt he was wearing,
You can't pin it down to style.

It was caring so much
I'd do anything, and I did.

I haven't cared so much for so long,
Maybe that's why they question me.
All the things that I love,
Seemed to pale ____ly

I try to pick myself up
But knowing I have to drags me straight back down.

I know you've been through the same thing,
I just hope you can understand.
I need to be needed,
And wanted, if you can.

So, hold me,
Cos that's all you can do right now.
I know I'm not easy,
But I'll try to be easy somehow.

There's a difference between what you say
And what you convey.

I need a little help actually-what's the word for when things have a relationship, so when one goes down so does the other? answers in a comment box please...

March 30, 2005

Everything's fine!

Well, let me take you through the evening that was;

I turned up in the company of Kimmy to find the band all sat together rolling and drinking, Lucy came over and hugged me and I said hi to everyone though Simon seemed intent on not seeing me for a bit. Then I sat down and removed my coat and he said "hi", so I decided to just go for it and I went and sat by him and asked how everything is and was, and we talked pretty freely, although I was nervous as hell, and told him honestly about the past two months, and he told me that he's now living in halls (!) and he's back in love with his course and if he does well on his exams he's going to stay on for the duration! I'm pleased things are going well for him.

It took me a while to figure out why I was so on edge and mixed up. For one, we were sat right near the stage and I wasn't sure where to look, because obviously I couldn't watch him any more, but that's what I always did, you know? old habits…So I stared adoringly at Lucy instead and bounced along (in my seat) although the old songs took a while to feel like normal.

SO we talked a bit more then I used the old female tactic of the loo to think to myself for a bit; there's no attraction there any more, you know, I have no desire to be with him again, and I finally clicked, similar to the feeling that spurred yesterdays entry, I miss his friendship, and I miss what it feels like to be in love. Sometimes I wonder how love happens, or why, and why things change, but it does and they do. I miss having someone that I really could tell everything to at any time and they would make it all right. I know this isn't something you achieve quickly, and to be fair he never knew me completely, which is probably why things changed, but I realised that I'd missed him as a friend.

The final relief came when I asked him why he'd stopped emailing, and he didn't seem to realise that he had! He doesn't have net access at home now so he only ever pops on for band stuff, and he said he'd forgotten whose turn it was. So there was never any vindictivness or intent, and he hasn't read this for months!

So, now everything (as far as I can see) is fine, I'm happy, he seems happy, the band's doing well, and to top it off I had a wonderful, slightly psychedelic night over at Jo and Paul's flat, with much red wine and 70's music. I love their hippy pad!

Thanks to everyone for your comments yesterday, and I hope that anyone else who has fallen out with their ex's can actually carry out the line of "We'll still be friends", if that dread line was uttered at the end.

March 29, 2005

T–minus 4hrs 15mins max

Follow-up to Teaching, Day 2 from Claire Blogden

OK, this evening I am going an Arlen gig.

It's going to be fine because Lucy, Russ, Ben and Dave have all asked after me to go, and I know at least Jo and Paul will be there and possibly Kimmy, Anton etc aswell. But of course, this is the night I see Simon for the first time since Christmas, and speak to him for the first time since above entry.

I don't know if he read that and that's why he stopped emailing, or if it was because I didn't reply to his email. The wierd thing is I've actually grown up over the last twelve hours, since recieving some information I'm propbably not supoosed to have but suspected all the same, to realise that I really have to handle tonight carefully.

Part of me, the part at the fore-front of my thinking, had this idea that I had to breeze in, and, I dunno, I guess it's my vanity but I was on the brink of playing the very game I don't want to play; the "My Life is Better than Yours" game. I had to make out everything was perfect because I suspect he'll be doing the same. But then I remembered we were supposed to be staying friends, and how am I going to do that if I go in there with a head the size of the bass amp?! My life is far from perfect, and why shouldn't I be honest with him? Besides, I know someone in that room whos life is far worse and who actually has problems so I can't make it all about me, and I have to be so careful that I don't! (I'm quite good at that you see!)

So, yeah, it has the potential to be a really good night, I just have to set the right tone, so I can be guilt-free at the end of it!

Any advice/thoughts on possibly the most personal blog entry ever by me?!

March 27, 2005


Ok, I know it's Easter, so happy-second commercialised Christian festival of the year, everyone. I hope those who it means something to have a good day and the rest of us get fat off the chocolate they provide.

But, more importantly I've decided to set up a discussion on who the half-blood prince will be, that is the character refered to in the sixth (and penultimate) Harry Potter Novel by J K Rowling. Even those of you with the vaguest, perhaps only film-only knowledge of the story can still join in.

The candidates are;

Lord Voldemort; for some reason when I read the title I assumed the prince was an evil character, perhaps because of the reference to blood. But as we all know, half-bloods aren't necessarily evil, infact it's pretty much pure-blood wizards you have to look out for.
Still, the Dark Lord himself had muggle (or boring, non-magical) parents, so he is in with a good chance.

Harry Potter; I'm hoping it isn't him, cos it would be boring to have the main character get all the good stuff, although I guess that's why he's the main character. Harry's mother Lily was from a muggle family. I'm not sure about his dad, does anyone know if the Potter's were a pure-blood family? I'm presuming not.

Hermione Granger-muggle parents although she is female, which would make her more of a princess and the title more of a give-away!

Ron Weasley; I think, even though the portrait of Sirius' mum and the malfoys lay into the Weasleys all the time, they are a pure-blood family, aren't they? correct me if I'm wrong…

Draco Malfoy; as I've said, no way. He hates half-bloods so even the title of "Prince" wouldn't make him consider being one!

Dean Thomas; his parents are indeed muggles, but he's had so little to do in the stories, appart from joining the DA, that it wold be totally surprising, and sometimes that's just not JK's thing!

Neville Longbottom; as cool as it would be for him to have something cool happen, both his parents are magical.

Rubeus Hagrid; Half blood? Extremely! half giant and magical he's one of the most mixed up characters in the book. Strong possibility, but what he's do with the title I'd dread to think!

Remus Lupin; Again, I'd love to see this man get the credit he deserves, but I have no clue about his lineage and somehow, I just don't think so!

So, based on the evidence, place your votes in the handily supplied comments box below!

March 25, 2005

I did it, see?

1. Iceland or Sweden?
Sorry Moz, but for pure "shout out" value it has to be SWEDEN!

2. Spatula or spork?
I find sporks more useful for eating things with…although spatulas help create cake…

3. Unicorn or Pegasus?
Pegasus, flying is sooo cool!

4. Rose creams or violet creams?
Violet, please

5. Toffee or fudge?

6. Coffee or tea?
Tea in many varieties.

7. Lager or Ale? (not at all a loaded question ;-))

8. Sun or moon?
I'll side with my femininity on this one. Moon.

9. Slugs or snails?
Snails are prettier, and can't fit under our skirting boards.

10. Puppy-dogs tails-discuss.
They are cute and swishy and a vital ingredient in little boys.

11. "Fairy" or "Fearie"?
Yes I know I spelt the second version wrong, so "Faerie" it is, especially the Froudian variety!

12. JK Rowling or Phillip Pullman?
I'm going to choose Pullman, even though I love JKR and can't wait for "The Half-blood Prince" (does it mean He-who-must-not-be-named? his parents were muggles…at least we know it isn't Draco…posh git!) but Pullman has so many varied books as well as deeper subject matter in "his Dark Materials" so I think he's a better author.

13. Harry, Ron, or Hermione?
Hermione, because she can actually do magic competantly, and could probably win against the Dark Lord if she ever faced him becuase she's that clever.

14. Are Demons a good idea, or would you rather not have to see yourself that clearly?
(this q is in the context of "His Dark Materials") At least you'd always have someone to talk to. Unless you had reeeeallt severe slef-loathing!

15. Favourite mythical creature?
Dragon! always win.

16. Ever heard of a Beholder? what is it?
Yes it is a floating orb with one main eye and lots of little ones, there were many different types in the AD&D book I used to scan through for the pictures-I'm crap at games, I've never played "Baulder's Gate"

17. Yorkie-can girls eat it too?

18.Chocolate coated raisins or yoghurt coated banana?
Raisins, always. Yoghurt coating is yukky.

19. What is the acceptable length for a scarf?
hehe, more geared at Arts students, I love scarves of all lengths!

20. Smarties or MnM's?
well, Smarties are made by evil people, but MnM's aren't so I'll have to learn to love them.

21. Mini-eggs or creme eggs?
Both, I'm a greedy choco-holic!

22. Janis Joplin orJoni Mitchell?
For jumping around the room; Janis. For introspective chill, Joni.

23. Elves or Dwarves?
Elves are prettier, but Dwarves have all the metal. But Elves are prettier…

24. Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot or Prongs?
Moony, cos even though I couldn't control my transformation, at least I'd still be alive!
(Moony=Lupin=werewolf, Wormtail=Pettigrew=lamely-evil, Padfoot=Sirius=cool but deceased, Prongs=James Potter=very dead)

25. Sheep or goat?
Sheep. So fluffy!

26. Incense; sticks, cones or oil?

27. Favourite incense smell?
Zen Meditation

28. Last place you walked to?
To Waterlooville precinct and back but I did walk around Fareham and the Fernham Hall with my mum for quite some time

see, told you I'd do it!

March 24, 2005

Gods I'm desperate not to work.

You Are 40% Normal

(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal…

Other things you do are downright strange

You've got a little of your freak going on

But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

Your Irish Name Is...

Eimear O'Byrne

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter – bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

You Belong in 1968


If you scored…

1950 – 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 – 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule – oh, and drugs too.

1970 – 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 – 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night – and successful during the day.

1990 – 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

You are


OK, odd but still as quizes go they were pretty quick. Just try the crayon one…How I got that I've no clue!

Questions for you

Ok, in a spate of randomness I have indeed come up with some questions to help us find out a bit more about the blogmunity (yes, there is more than one, I'm a collective) These have no real relevance except possibly to each other/bandsoc/what I could see in my bedroom at the time of writing. I'll blog some pics of my room sometime, that should explain a lot!

1. Iceland or Sweden?

2. Spatula or spork?

3. Unicorn or Pegasus?

4. Rose creams or violet creams?

5. Toffee or fudge?

6. Coffee or tea?

7. Lager or Ale? (not at all a loaded question ;-))

8. Sun or moon?

9. Slugs or snails?

10. Puppy-dogs tails-discuss.

11. "Fairy" or "Fearie"?

12. JK Rowling or Phillip Pullman?

13. Harry, Ron, or Hermione?

14. Are Demons a good idea, or would you rather not have to see yourself that clearly?

15. Favourite mythical creature?

16. Ever heard of a Beholder? what is it?

17. Yorkie-can girls eat it too?

18.Chocolate coated raisins or yoghurt coated banana?

19. What is the acceptable length for a scarf?

20. Smarties or MnM's?

21. Mini-eggs or creme eggs?

22. Janis Joplin orJoni Mitchell?

23. Elves or Dwarves?

24. Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot or Prongs?

25. Sheep or goat?

26. Incense; sticks, cones or oil?

27. Favourite incense smell?

28. Last place you walked to?

I'm going to complete this myself later, and I know some of it won't make sense to some people, but go on, chose a few and answer'll be fun!

March 23, 2005

I stole this!

Writing about guh! from Talking Behind the Psychic's Back

Hehe, I decided to do the quiz thing from Eimer's blog, but for some reason had to select the whole thing to copy the questions over! Wierd, huh? But yeah, I'm thinking of inventing my own version of one of these, but thought I'd do some more research first. And yes I have done work today! I've read through the Y2 handbook (which only arrived about 4 weeks ago) to see just how scarily little time I actually have to fix things but that I am actually on target for my year. Horray!

1.What Time is it now?

2.What is your full name?
Claire Margaret Bowden.

3.Single or taken?

4.What does your name mean?
erm…I don't know…hang on…
Claire is Latin and means bright and clear…
Margaret from the Persian means child of light, from Greek it means Pearl, and from Shakespeare "Henry VI part 2", wife to Henry the VI. (I don't like the last one-the histories are bloomin' boring!)
And Bowden was Anglo-Saxon meaning messanger. I didn't expect to find "Bowden" on link (the first google result for "meanings of names" but, there you go! I'd always hoped it was Celtic…)
So anyway, Clearly lit messanger. With a pearl.

5.Who picked out your name?
Mum probably. The middle name runs in the family, Nan's first name to mum's middle to me. My brother got Patrick from my Dad!

6.What's your nickname?
Don't really have one…used to be Bowdy, in fact more people called me that than Claire.
Some have used "Clairey", and others including my wonderous PSHE teacher and recently Carter have taken to using "Bowden". Not very good, are they?!

8.What colour are your eyes?
Brown, but sometimes green. I don't know if it's mood/diet/what but it happens.

9.Do you have an innie or an outie?
innie! (didn't have to edit that one!)

10.What size are your shoes?
my patent cherry-reds are 6, my blacks are 7 and my elf boots are eight, to be worn with thick socks!

I don't know, Eimer, I just don't know.

12.How tall (or short) are you?
5'8? I actually have no idea.

13.Honestly what do you like about yourself?
That other people like me. There must be some good in there somewhere if they do!

14.What do you always get complimented on?
my cooking usually goes down well.

15.What is your worst quality?

16.What are the last four digits of your phone Number?

17.Do you think you're cute?
some days

18.Hair colour?
brown with remnants of purple/pink dye and a BLONDE streak down front right.

19.Do you wear contacts?
only if I anticipate being hit in the face

20.Living Arrangements?
The wilds of South Leam with Dave, Carrie and NAT, although currently in Padnell Road with mum, Dad and Oscar, and soon once more James when he gets back from germany!

21.Favourite Drink?
tea of many varieties

22.Favourite alcoholic drink?
Gales Fruit wines are always good

23.Favourite Month?
June, summer on campus should be fun!

24 Favourite Food?
'_' how can I choose? this week it's Mexican! Arriba!!

25.Favourite Board Game?
I've always been fond of Monopoly

26.Web Site? FLASH!!

27.Favourite Clothing Brand?
Random Festival Stall

28.Favourite day of the Year?
Any day I'm feelin' good

29.Favourite colour?
today it is emerald green

30.Favourite Animal?

31.Do you have more girl or boy friends?
I think boys are winning right now

32.Who's your best friends?
You are kidding? They're all wicked, it may be soppy but it's true!

33.Are your parents together?

34.How often do you get together with the family?
we don't really get together. I guess closest to it was last summer at my Nan's 80th. We visit the Falmouth side about twice a year.

35.Do you tell your parents or your friends more?
always friends

36.Anything special about your parents?
My Dad's started swearing more casually as we got older. I just tell everyone the story of him at uni cooking maccaroni cheese in the grill pan and it being so heavy the handle snapped off!
My Mum worries too much, but she's lovely!

38.You're a flirt?

39.You're slutty?!
not any more Mean?
hope not, no!

41.You like someone?

42.You can keep secrets?

43.You dance in front of the mirror?
no, just in my room

44.You sing in the shower?

46.You liked Britney Spears?

47.You've liked a cousin?
'_' as a friend, yes…what are you getting at…?

48.You've been in the opposite sexes bathroom?

49.You've seriously hurt someone?
'fraid so.

50.You've been hurt seriously?

51.You swear?

52.You get your way?
hehe not often!

53.You're willing to try new things?

54.You've cheated on a test?
probably when I was veeery little

57.What are you wearing?
purple sarong with fishies on, black vest top, pants, glasses.

58.What colour are your pants?
Black. How dull…

59.What are you listening to?
the hum of the comp stack and radio 2

60.How are you feeling?
pretty good today, it's so sunny!

61.What are you doing?
um, surely you know the answer to this?!

62.What are you eating?

63.How many people are online?
no idea, I havn't loaded msn on this hard drive

64.How's the weather?
sunny,sunny blue sky! few whispy clouds.

65.What's on your mouse pad?
don't have one :(

66.What books are you reading?
"Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix" by JKR. I know, what possessed me to read it again….?!
And the Y2 BA(QTS) handbook by Warwick Institute of Education.

67.How many razors?
where exactly?!

68.What after shave do you use?
I don't I'm a girl!

69.What's in your wallet?
um…debit card, NUS card, Yellow card, Natwest helpline thingy, video rentals card, piece of card with my here address on one side and a song I wrote on the back, not a lot of money.

71. tall or short boys?

72.Blonde or brunette boys?
currently blonde, although I'm not really this fussy!

74.knickers showing?
I hope not!

75. Long hair or short hair on girls?
whatever suits them

76. What do you find annoying in a boy?
Not getting up in the mornng!!;-)

77.What's the first thing you notice about boys?
what instrument they're holding, followed by how well they can play!

88.What was the last movie you saw?
Kubirick's "Clockwork Orange", brother, sir.

89.What did you have for dinner?
Random turkey and apricot thing I cooked for mum and me. It's really nice…honestly, with salad and pittas and humous. Ok, so it's healthy, stop grimacing like that!!

90.What are you hoping for?
My non-failure in my course and on my 2 execs

92.What movie do you really want to see?
the new "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory"! and there was something else too…can't remember.

93.Tell us about those scars?
One on my left eyebrow from running around the house, falling over and hitting the skirting board. One on my left shin from doing a cartwheel on our school wall, however the lazy gits only smoothed off one side so when I fell down the back the jagged rocks took a lump out my shin! :-( Iodine patches for weeks. Although they did give me a lollipop!

95.Where is your favourite place to travel?
I loved Prague and Brugge and Florida (contrast, I know!) I really want to go to Japan and probably New Zealand/Australia one day.

96.What did you last dream about?
I can't remember exactly but it was definatly to do with Harry Potter because I was reading it before I went to sleep and it has been my key avoidance tactic so far!!

97.What was the last thing you ate?
toast and butter

98.If you were a crayon what colour what would you be?
Jungle green, although I will take the test later and find out.

99.Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my Dad. I'm kinda his secretary some times too.

100.Do you like the person that sent this to you?
well, they didn't send so much as I stole, so, I love you Eimer! thankyou for not noticing I stole your blog entry!

102.Ever had a crush on a teacher?

103.Are you too shy to ask someone out?
um, apparently not.

104.Scary movies or happy ending?
dependes what mood I'm in. Tragic endings are quite popular, too.

105.Summer or winter?
Both, but just now loving the summer!!

106.Relationships or one night stands?
relationships please, one-nighters have so lost their appeal for me.

107.Chocolate or Vanilla?
In solid form, chocolate, in ice-cream vanilla, but with chocolate sauce!

111.What did you do last night?
researched festivals for the summer. Can't chance (or technically afford) Glasto' this year, discovered Warwick is £26 NUS and has Kate Rusby and Kieth Donnally involved, so I think I'm there!

112.Anything else you want to add?
I ramble, I appologise.

113.Time finishing?
11:42?!?! oh my god. I did pause a couple of times to talk to my mum though.

extra questions
Not sure, I need to figure one of those out.

hmm…I guess Snowy, cos I still have him. (he's a white puppet-cat who now has hardly any fur, no whiskers and scratched eyes…I loved him so much!)

both please, and cuddles, too.


well, I knew Lucy in Junior school, but Emma's been my friend since Y8 whereas Lucy and I made friends a lot later, so Emma wins!
Although, me and my cousin Sarah have been pretty good friends all our lives, but as we're family she had an unfair advantage!

nature, myths, legends and emotions.

big, disproportionate spiders, failure, not being safe, seeing peoples teeth getting knocked out in films, that just makes me cringe!!

Sweet, damn you!

Roses probably, but fresias are lovely, oh and those big daisy-like ones, they look like they're made of plastic, but they're not and they're really bright colours…you know the ones…:-S


the sunny days and the ones I've accomplished something!

had a meal with my family, but I had a party at home before, my then boy frined took me out a couple of days later and my Uni friends threw me a surprise party when we were all back! wicked.

just the one.


hehe 0! :-D

St. Mary's hospital, Portsmouth, south England.

And indeed, that was a sharp stop!
well, there you go. Any other questions you'd like answered?!

March 22, 2005


I just followed this link from Carter's
domain, only to get the same answer as him! But I didn't think I was anything like Carter! and I've never even haerd of this movie!

Maybe I should've faked it and tried for Edward Scissorhands.

You Are Sam From "Benny & Joon."

You are very talented at physical comedy. People are in awe of your abilities. However, you have many quirks which can either win people over or completely annoy them. But you're a sweetheart through and through, and it's hard not to love you.

Take The Johnny Depp Quiz!

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