All entries for October 2008
October 29, 2008
There is I suppose a context to this, the poem itself is an attempt to represent our "other" in a dialogue poem. So I looked around and found one of my others who has a habit of rising to the top alot of the time. And here he is.
“Go back, back to that homely tomb,
Lie in your bed and sleep through life,
Ignore the fall of sand upon the glass.”
“But rise I must to greet the glimmer,
Day’s first rays peek even now through.
And I must be out and about the world.”
“Why go to that world of pain and strife,
Why rise only to wish you were a slumber
Why walk when you can fold up here.”
“What would you have me do, stay?
Weighed down by ethereal nothings
Like cold steel bars across chest and shoulders
And confined to that black despair of rest
Which gives no respite, no relief, no end.
When I sink into that oily night I do not dream,
A dream requires freedom, and I am never free,
Merely sucked under the slimy sickness of sleep
Clasping my self and suffocating the mind buds
That dwell within.”
“So you sleep sound, away from nightmares,
How hard for you to bare such burdens,
Better to lie still, there’s worse out there
Than oblivions embrace.”
“But I must wake-up Sleeping Man!
The world does not wait for me to wake
If I stay locked in sleep much longer
The world will sprint on by and leave me
Laying there collapsed, consigned to dust.”
“It will abandon you regardless, dump you
Like the sack of self-righteous shit you are,
It’s too fast, too callous, too real for you
To bear. So why try to get back up,
Why insist you run into wall after wall,
Till it has more of your blood on it than
Your heart beats through that sandy breast.”
October 14, 2008
Our task shouldn't have been that, hard. Twenty couplets on what we hate, followed by 10 on why we love what we hate. Unfortunately it's difficult to write about what you hate on the spur of the moment, not without something to set me off. And unfortunately the party conferences are over for the year and so my anger at the political spectrum for remaining so homogeneous and sickeningly sycophantic has long since passed. Yet I suppose I had no choice but to pursue the thing that I hate the most in this world, politics and politicians. (Which is not to say that I hate them an awful lot, just that it's one of the few things I get truly passionate about.)
So I made a first attempt.
I hate their pressed suits
And pointless little disputes
I hate their preening disdainful looks
As if we’ve never read a book
I hate their avoidance and slippery wordplay
Why is that they can never mean what they say?
I hate the way they ignore the bad
As if it’s just some passing fad
I hate it that they always lie
And seem to only answer, fie fie fie
I hate the way they mock and sneer
And rant about those who’re not from ‘here’
I hate that they ignore what they want
And claim to fix that broken levant
I hate that they take no shame
In seeking glory and high fame
Which sucked, as you can tell. So talking to a certain someone who shall remain a nameless Cambridge student I tried again, to slightly better success.
There is no craven craft as vile
No font of more spurious bile
Than the politicians smug grin
Trying to be that most ugly thing
Of amiable friendship and authority
Whilst sneering at the minority
And giving us all happy platitudes
And hope we don’t see the multitudes
Of beaten and broken men and women
Forced down to their knees time and again
Who cares for the downtrodden masses
When the rich have their opera glasses
And pandering fools to help them around
To blot from below that piteous sound
Of a conscience crying in the gutter
As hopes of good die down and sputter
The good go in, and the bad come out
A revolving door to turn the devout
From men of vision and principle
To creatures most abominable
That power corrupts cannot be disputed
Yet it is those who have none that are muted
And dragged forwards to the block
Of public opinions rage and shock
That men in spotless pinstripe suits
Play upon like infernal lutes
To marshal the ignorant and hate filled people
To hang their neighbours from the nearest steeple
And ignore their betters wide reaching failings
Lest they go behind those crowded iron railings
But what truly makes me sick
Is that we all put up with it
That nefarious deed to rapturous applause
Is not seen as a rallying cry to the cause
To take back that house from liars and sycophants
Who in our blood make their dark covenants
Why do we not demand our voices
Act with conscience and not invoices
Or maybe in that house the iniquitous rots set in too long
And should be torn down by our plebeian mob and throng
I still think this one has issues, mostly to do with consistency and the sometimes erratic nature of how my thoughts went. Then again anger and rage are very rarely rational. I also think I could stand to add in a bit more imagery, perhaps trim a few couplets and expand some of the other ones into trios of couplets on the same theme.
But that will likely wait till tomorrow if I have time after writing about the things that I love about politics, and there are surprisingly enough one or two things that I do love about politics, which is I suppose the point, the duality of emotion being what it is we often feel our hatred towards a thing made stronger by our love for some part or parts of it.
And with that I am off to bed, and will leave with a small snippet of a story/prologue that I'm working on at the moment: "Golden arcs, like cherubim dancing in fire, lit the sky above them in testament to the force unleashed in this last argument of two kings."
Edit: Apologies for the formatting here, but myself and this blogging program are having a slight difference of opinion when it comes to transfering things from word and not adding bloody double line spacings. I shall endeavour to fix it soonish though.
For it is full of nothing.
October 07, 2008
So after a lot of procrastination on the subjects of varied avoidance I have finally finished the poetical task set by David Morley last week. That is to say I've given up staring at my fourth draft and trying to think of anything new to say about the subject matter. Which is I suppose my own fault for leaving it so long and losing most of the spontaneity, and so with no further ado here it is:
ant like men laboured under the harness of polar bears
whilst a melonbomb mind stood sentinel in the snow
eyes frozen, emotion stilled, mind burst to leave
scraps of heedless thought in frozen rigor
scattered scarlet across the icy tundra
I think I've done... well badly obviously. The imagery is perhaps a little weak and I really should have searched through my thesaurus more thoroughly and not instead used it as an impromptu pillow (a task for which it is surprisingly comfy). However I don't really want to take another crack at this, at least not in this form, five lines is far too short for this sort of thing, especially for what came to my mind when writing it. Maybe in a month or two when I can bring a fresher perspective to it all.
October 02, 2008
Right, here goes with this blog malarkey.
Having moved into Warwick and been utterly confuzzled and apprehensive (manfully mind) of the entire experience I struck out on Monday morning with the intention of going to my introduction to English. Little was I to know that this meeting would have unforeseen and calamitous consequences for it was here that I found out that I had been lied to with nefarious intent!
Well no not really, it was actually just a little bit of a rude awakening to the fact that we started work straight away, which was something of a particular shock for me having come from a happily lazy gap-year spent frittering away the money I managed to earn and getting carved up by the NHS. Oh and banging my head into walls with regards to a few stories that will not for the love of whatever deity chooses to listen write themselves. But at least I got a chance to read a bit, and the lack of exams was a nice change from the norm.
But like any stoically-lipped Englishmen I have not let that dishearten me, and have persevered, and now find myself settled in and ready to write to my hearts content… or when I finish my other assignments. Gah, I feel some lectures in time management, and perhaps a blunt instrument to hammer them home will be required sooner rather than later in my regard.
Regardless this blog is to do with my writing supposedly, and I shall attempt to show you some examples of it all as time goes on, and maybe some of the undoubtedly small number of readers out there will have cause to enjoy said writing, but for now I shall stick to the moment and the lovely little exercise left to us by David Morley. Five lines of poetry taken from the crème de la crème of what we wrote in the writers’ room.
Here’s what I picked from the writing:
ant like men laboured under the harness of polar bears
As you can see it’s a fairly silly pair things to be writing a poem about, but I suppose I should make the best of a bad situation and soldier on with it. Still, I’m sure I can hammer it into something that won’t make people tear out their eyes in a horrific compulsion.