All entries for September 2005
September 24, 2005
One of the first things I organised when I came back to uni was the internet, I was desperate to have it as I was so used to having the internet from last year.
So now after abotu 2 weeks of being here I have the internet and now that I have it, I have no idea what to do with it. I remember when we didn't have the internet and needed to find something out we'd always say, "If only we had the internet". It became a kind of joke, and now that I do have the internet all the things I was thinking of doing have now gone. So I decided to fill some of my empty space (I really should be doign some work), with writing a completely pointless blog on how happy I am that I have the internet.
Yes I am so happy, I can now chat to my friends, who unfortunately most whom have no intenet. So yay!!! But hopefully they will do soon.
September 07, 2005
Various times this holiday (and during the previous holiday), I have been driving along roads that have only one-lane when I come across another vehicle. I have found (in agreement with my mum), that some not all of the men drivers in the other direction expect me to reverse and then when I allow them to get passed don't express any thanks. You could say that it could happen to both men and women, but from my experience I have found that my dad has never had this problem whereas my mum has, as well as having abusive comments yelled at her for no apparent reason.
Similarly why is it that men have to yell at women walking along a road, I really don't understand it.
However although I'm moaning about this, I can't really complain as similar things happen to men.
Male friends have often complained to me about how girls get served quicker at bars (by male bar staff) than guys (I haven't noticed this at uni). Similarly if there were a war I'm sure that men and women would not be made to recruit at the same time, the men would be made to recruit first.
So I can't really say I have anything to complain about because men and women will suffer equally but from different things.
Personally I'm happy with the way things are.
September 04, 2005
For some reason I am incredibly unobservant when it comes to people that are close to me. I often fail to notice things like a persons new haircut, or the fact that they've lost weight and one time I failed to notice for 3 weeks that one of my closest friends had had her braces removed.
However I seem to notice new things in strangers straight away. Like the random people who I have no idea who they are, but I always see them around, I notice if they have a new haircut.
I remember once meeting someone and thinking that they were really pretty, but then as I got to know them they started to become uglier. Similarly someone who I didn't really consider pretty started to become pretttier the more I got to know them.
I've always found it strange trying to recall what I first thought of someone when I first met them..
In the same way I can't look at my parents in any other way than they are my parents. I think that my problem is that as soon as I've got to know someone I stop seeing them as they are, they're personality comes into it and for this reason I am unobservant.
It's that or the fact that I come from a family that is generally unobservant to the people around them, my mum who is the most obsevant one out of my parents, failed to notice my dad had shaved his moustache off until he mentioned it.
So if any of my friends are reading this and have ever been insulted by me not noticing something new about them, I'm sorry, it's really not intentionally done.
September 02, 2005
A few weeks ago I went on a bike ride with my dad and a family friend. We were gone for about 3 hours in which time we cycled to our 'local' shopping centre and returned.
That night when we were discussing the cycle ride, when my dad and our family friend were both quite drunk they both said that the best part of the ride and the day was when we had stopped in our neighbouring village to eat plums that we had found on the floor.
My dad said that it was his idea of heaven.
Although I can't agree with them that this was the best part of the day (I don't have one), I can appreciate why they found it the best part of the day.
It's simple things that make you happy, like the way my younger brother sometimes hugs me for no reason, or when a random stranger in the street smles at you.
My dad always says that he's the richest man on earth for he is happy and he isn't happy because he has money or good qualifications (because he doesn't have these). I often think that he's happy because he has us his family but I never ask him.
But it is because of my dad that whenever anyone asks me what I want to achieve in life I always say happiness. For come what may you will always have that even if everything else in life falls apart.
Since starting university I've realised that I don't know anything at all about life. There was a point a few years ago when I thought that I was mature and that I knew enough about life to be considered an adult, upon reflection I can realise how childish that belief was.
Since going to uni I have realised more things about myself and life, some of which have contradicted with ideas I'd had previously. These conflicting ideas have left me confused for I don't know which way is right. But I guess when it comes down to it there is no right way, just the way that best suits you.
I have also realised that I will be learning new things for the rest of my life, from new people, new places, new experiences and I really don't think that this is a bad thing. Infact I think that this is the best thing and if this means that I never become an adult, better that way as I'm happier doing this.