All entries for Monday 18 January 2010
January 18, 2010
There are so many things I learned and discovered about leadership, about myself and teamwork during this module. A lot of information and ideas coming and my brain could hardly cope and digest and structure all of them, it requires time and understanding and assessment against myself. I do not know but as more I learn about leadership the more I become aware that it is really not so easy to be an effective leader and by trying to assess myself against those things I learned I am confusing could I really be a leader? Could I really to devote myself and keep an eye on all of these things, which so important to leadership…..
The thing I consider in leadership as one of the most important is coping with that balance between task and people. As far as task is concerned it is fine, I am really a task oriented person. But when it comes to people… its really hard to me, I always try to care about, but in the actual process I could forget about people and just listen to myself. Leadership as I understand is more about relationships between people and leader.
One of the problems I encountered in teamwork of mini-projects that when we actually gather often I am a person who take imitative and say “ok guys lets start o lets try this”. Because sometimes people hardly could make a start or just do not know where to start I just try to push them and do things in fast and efficient way. But some people in our group as I feel think that I imposing my views and opinions on them. In that situations I want to be just quiet follower, “living dead precisely”. I do not want to be a leader in teamwork, I am not presenting and pushing myself as a leader but I do not want at same time spend too much time on things that could be done in more efficient way. The second issue that there are strong personalities in our group and it some times hard to understand each other. A am sorry guys if I made something wrong I am just used to be disciplined and focused in everything I do and often it is my great weakness.