LE – Me, the Leader
I'd like to trace back my experience of leadership to one of the in module simulation. I had the opportunity to play the role of leader for simulation in which we had to bid for the hotels. Althought at first I wasn't too comfortable getting into the shoes of a leader, I was inspired by the events of the previous day. There was a comment from one of my group mates who said that anybody can be a leader, we just need to give it a go, just breakfree from the comfort zone and try it and everything will then fall into place. His words in particular did influence me, they motivated me to go on and do the role play. Its quite interesting to see how simple motivation from peers can be so effective and can help us grow.
As the days events unfolded, I observed and reflected my behaviour as a leader. Its so easy to sit in a chair as an employee and complain about all the things that go wrong in the organsiationbut its so difficult to actually be a leader and run the organisation. When I started off as a leader, I was extremely nervous. I didn't show it but I knew I knew how badly I wanted to get this right. I felt responsible for the entire team, for its success and faliures and its not a very easy feeling to cope up with. I strongly believe that whatever we achieved as a team was because of the contribution of each and every member. We are what we are because of our team. I was fortunate enough to work with some extremely supportive, intelligent and efficient team memebers. I also discovered that the approach that works the best with me for leadership is to be a democratic leader. I believe that my expertise and skills cannot always be the best in a team. I have to trust others and believe in them. Therefore, we took a collective decisions from a sytemic point of view rather than being autocratic and independent thinkers. And as a team we did great. But I do sit and wonder that if I hadn't got a good team would we still achieve the same results?? Is being democratic always good?? Are we successful cause of the decisions we take or does luck play a big role in this? What is there are urban terrorists, am I capable enough to tackle them?? Ofcourse, you cant just become an effective leader in a day. Its a journey. Even the smallest experience can teach you a long. I believe that as I take this road in MBE, i would have fortunately taken some very long strides in this journey :)