Writing this dissertation has been much harder than I initially thought. I feel like once again, I am being stretched far above my comfort zone. One thing I came to realise thought, is that whatever it is that I may feel like I am going through, someone else has felt the same way. In other words, there is really nothing very new or unique about a lot of our experiences.
One thing I find challenging in browsing through journal articlaes is that frankly, I havent a clue what some of them are going on about! Sometimes, there are a lot of fancy big words, and technical mumbo jumbo that makes it difficult for me to get to the heart of the authors opinions or arguments. So I find myself facing this dilema, I mean how can I make use of knowledge, and effectively analyse and crtitique it if I dont even understand it?
Another problem I have had is the diffuculty of trying to make sense of all the information out there. Frankly, finding homogenuity in the subject area my dissertation is based on (Change Management) has been a bit of a nightmare. It appears that everyone has an opinion and wants to establish a reputation. So there is the desire to at the very least appear to have discovered or unearthed somethng new, a new idea or thought pattern completely different from all others. In a bid to stand out, academics, and researchers have ended up repoducing what sometimes can appear to be quite a jumbled mess of ideas, with very little coherency or areas of commonality. This in essence leads to the literature of the discipline being disfragmented, and I am not certain that this is a good thing.
I am certain a lot of people out there can relate with me. There have been and continue to be days where I feel like frankly, I never want to so much as see another journal article or write up ever again. But then, i shake off those feelings and I press on, because I have to, at least for now.
So here's to hoping that some how, some day (and it certainly has to be soon) all the mess will start to make sense, and I will end up with a research work that is something that I can be proud of even in years to come.
Now i'm off to scan more journals.....cheers